Survivor

"I Ship It!"

Previously: You're burying your face in Quinton's hoodie and you start sobbing. He just holds without a word and waits until you stop sobbing, then you turn towards him and...

You put your arms around his neck and hug him. He is shocked as first but then he hugs you back and you sigh. You can feel your cheeks tinge with pink. The both of you laugh it off.

"Maddie why di-", Alison walks in on you and her eyes go wide,"Oh um...sorry for interrupting."

Ha I didn't even have to pull out the big guns Alison thought to herself as she turns.

"Wait Ali..." You tell her.

"Yup?" She replies in a sing-song manner.

"Please don't tell Cat", you plead.

"Why not?" She argues.

"You know her ways..." You reply, referring to the many times she teased you whenever you spoke to a boy, when you were all in 4th grade.

"Oh okay fine, I won't", she replies with a roll of the eyes.

"Thank you" you say.

As Alison walks away she whispers loudly,"I ship it."

You can't help but smile.
Wait a second...am I catching feelings for someone I met like two days ago! No...this can't happen...it won't happen...we barely know each other...

"Hey...um...are you okay...?" Quinton asks with a worried face.

"No...no I'm not! This", you say swirling a finger," this can't happen...we met like what!? Two days ago! There can't be anything in between us, there won't and never will be!" You without any second thoughts.

Quinton gets up and runs out.
Did she really mean that...? Does she...? Of course she does! She has way better things in her life why would she want to be with me...? I'm so blind... He thinks as he stuffs his hands in his pockets and walks out.

"Hey! Where are you going?" Alison asks as she runs after him.

"Leave me alone Alison! I-I'm going where I want to okay! Leave me alone!" He yells at her without turning back.

He was hurt, he felt useless inside, he felt stupid and naïve.

--------Meanwhile--------

"Madeline Williams what is wrong with you!?" Alison s reams as she walks into your room.

She sees you staring at the wall as if it were the last piece of cake at a wedding buffet.

"What'd I do?" You say, knowing exactly what she meant, you're eyes start to get watery.

"Oh you know exactly what you did!" Alison yells at you,"Quinton is probably gonna end up dying because of you!"

Alison's eyes are starting to tear up.

"I-I-I messed up", you say unable to look at her because of the shame.

"What did you tell him?" She says as she composes herself.

"I-I t-told him th-that nothing could ever happen between us and that nothing ever will", you cry with the regretful memory playing in your head, like a popular song on the radio.

"You what!? Why!?" Alison says her as she wipes away her tears.

"I-I don't know", you start to break down, your heart crumbling into a million pieces.

--------Meanwhile--------

Quinton is walking towards the river, his eyes are burning with pain and anguish. He kept on blaming himself, he had never felt so broken before. He walked over to the riverbank and stared at the water, it was rapid and greyish because it started getting dark out.

Am I not enough? Did I do something wrong? Or am I just plain naïve for falling for a girl I met only like two days ago? What she said hurt me, it felt like a deep stab to the heart, I feel like a nobody, I am just a nobody. No one ever likes me...

Quinton starts sniffling. (A/N: it's okay for guys to cry, they have feelings too) he picked up a rock and tossed it into the river. He felt a wave of self pity engulf him.

---Back At The Village---

You are crying, you feel as if you've lost one of your best friends, Oh wait, you did.

I wonder how Quinton is, is he okay? Will he come back? Does he hate me? Of course he hates me! I hurt his feelings, and I didn't give a second thought about how much those words will hurt him.

You get up and walk up to your suitcase, you open it and take out the hoodie he gave you.
(the first night on the island)



You hold it close to you and lay down on the bed. You cry yourself to sleep, while singing "Little Do You Know" by Alex & Sierra.

You wake up in the morning and walk over to your suitcase you pick a comfortable outfit, grab Quinton's hoodie and go to Alison's and Catriona's hut. You see that they're not in the hut so you walk over to the tribe. An elderly woman sees you and points towards the river path, knowing that you're finding them.

You walk to the river and see Alison sitting beside Quinton and Chris while Catriona is playing in the water. As you walk towards them Quinton stands up and walks towards you.

"Quinton I'm so sorry fo-" You say, but you cut yourself off because instead of walking up to you he walks past you.

She still has my hoodie... what's she doing with it now? Quinton thinks as he walks past you.

You set your clothes on the ground and run behind him, you pull his arm.

"Quin can we please talk about this...please", You plead.

"I think you've said enough", he says still walking forward, without looking at you.

"Please, you're breaking my heart", You say as you start crying and fall on your knees.

"Oh, so you're the only one with a heart now is it" he replies as he turns towards you, his eyes are full of rage and they look hurt.

"I-I-", you stammer before you get up an run towards the village, bumping Quinton's shoulder as you run past him.

After a long time you decide to go take a shower, you walk towards the river and see your clothes set on a root. You take the towel change into your swimsuit and take a shower. You are rubbing natural shampoo into your hair.

"Sorry, I didn't see you there", says a voice behind you.

You turn back and see Quinton.

"Quinton please...I can explain..." You reply as you wash out the shampoo and walk towards him.

"I won't let anyone else break me again..." He mutters to himself before walking away.

You start sobbing because you feel like you've destroyed everything.

You change into this:



You decide not to wear Quinton's hoodie because it reminds you of him and whenever you think of him it makes your heart hurt.

You walk to the hut and sit on the bed. You look at the bracelet the tribe leader gave you and you just stared at it.

I've got to fix this...but how?...

You bite your lip as you think.

Oh I've got it! I just hope they help me...