Dear Ava

Prologue

"Dear Ava,

I love you so much, so very much, don't you ever forget that. I know you love me, and I hope that this is enough to make you understand, accept, and move on from what is happening. Do you think I would ever leave without saying goodbye? I will be gone by the time you read this. All that's left of me will become our memories. Memories that kept me going till today but then, suddenly, they weren't enough and now, everything feels heavy.

Ava, I thought I could get through this. I thought I could get through this with you being there with me, but I never thought this would have to happen. I fought, I fought harder than ever but I lost, I was defeated in the end. I'm sorry Ava. I truly am. I don't know why this is happening but I Probably deserve it. I wished to do my best. I have lost everything and don't want to lose more, I don't want you to lose more.

Ava, I am sorry for leaving you but I'll never be sorry for loving you. But, I had to do this. I had to make it stop before it reached you, affecting you any more than this. So, forgive me, my love. I will love you, always and forever. I know you are not happy, but I had no choice. You know when there is a rock and a hard place and you are stuck between it. That is not how this feeling is. This feeling is like being chained, being chained to the ground, and having all of the free space around you, but you can't move. No, you can't move and just, you just have to lose everything that's around.

All I can think of right now is all the good times. And the bad ones are overpowering, but I want to pass away in peace. So, all I will think of right now is all the time that I spent with you. You, Ava, were the light of my life. 'Take me back to the Night we met', your favorite song, it's still playing somewhere. I'm waiting for it to end. In a minute, it flashes before me, all our secret places and outings. Don't think I have forgotten your stash of my Valentine's Day's gifts.

Let me take you somewhere, somewhere far far away from what is happening. Where it is just me, you and the rest of the world doesn't exist. Where people are true to their nature. Just stay here, why don't you? But often you get pulled back into the world of reality... Here's where I am right now. 

I hope you remember me by my life, by the time we spent together. I hope you remember me when you sort through those gifts and not when you hear some news. I hope to stay forever in your heart.

I'm sorry. Please ever once forgive me in your life. I love you...

Signed,

Your Mason."

All Ava could do was stare at the letter in her hand.