help me close my eyes

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'Happiness,' that's one thing i never thought I'd find especially in this life, but i guess fate my wasn't done with me and as if me staying in this death bed isn't enough i guess breaking her heart was .

I know a lot of bad things happen to a lot of people but i never expected it to happen to me, and despite all of that , the betral I've gone through , the insecurities i have conjured in this journey called life and dont forget the pain and regret. All of it .

Despite all that am happy, happy that in this last moments on earth i was able to be in euphoria with her by my side.

But it hurts. Its fucking painful to leave her like this, she doesn't deserve it, no one really does but that doesn't stop it from happening, no one can stop death , we are only able to prolong it from happening but like all things there is an end , especially in life.

Regret. I was regreful that i will no longer be able to bring her happiness but instead sorrow , that i would no longer be able to give her the love she deserves . But i am not regretful of one thing and that is claming her as mine .

She made me smile when everyone else made me cry.

She lent me her wings when my own where stripped away by those i truly trusted.

She let me sore higher when i have been dragged down to where the devil lived.

I have never saw her . She never saw me and yet i know how she looks , how she thinks , how she loves , who loves her but despite all the above i know how she's mine.

Was it really possible to love a stranger, if not am a first and there's a first for everything .......and where there's start there's an end and mine was near.

As i felt the halothyne kick in , i watched as fear devoured me . I was scared not for me but for her. She called last night and i listened as she told me how much she loved me and how much she cried . how i wished to hold her and tell her everything was okay . But it wasnt it isnt and she knows that ,but she's not giving up so i should do the same for us.

Reina , wait for me and soon will be together my love .

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And with that last thought he drifted into the land if the unconscious as his body laid numbly on the cold room that was busy filled with the brave professionals that had this boys life in hus hand , and that made them more cautious knowing that one wrong move then truly will the boy be lost to the land of the dead, before starting they silently watched as the silent tear ran down from his closed eyes.

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