It s been a while now and my picture in my eyes keeps getting smaller and smaller. Once i thought the world would nvr break me, no matter how slaps and kicks i get i ll just get up like i was in a bad dream. But lately, the world isnt knocking me down but mit is knocking my closest persons.
My two sisters are more and more lost each one is fighting for a rope to save herself but ends up drawning more and more
I wanted to run for their rescue but i am helpless, far and helpless.
My boyfriend keeps getting sick and it s painful to be in his or my shoes. Nothing works for him and the "only" way to ease it is to stop feeling, and whats life without feelings..
Did it happen and find ur shit is the last thing ppl need in their lives so no matter how much concern they show u know ur pain isnt greater than theirs so you just burry and try ur best not to make it rise?
You are a mere detail in their existence and the fact that u make any step to help them just eats u inside out.
Uk things they thought u didnt notice, a change of behavior, faking it, a word that isnt supposed to be said, a rise of voice or a gesture that arent supposed to be done. And then they smile at u making u look like a fool with this cheesy kind of tricks.
I am the meticulous kind of persons when it comes to relations. I want it neat and clear. U take what u give. U love and love and love.
But at this point of my life, numbing my feelings because i feel so worthless and unnecessary is what i am planning to do till an unknown day.
I am aware that hardships are nvr meant to last, that somehow better times are supposed to surprise us and make us feel better. I am waiting for those good times. I desperately beg that they dont take so long to come because i desperately need them.
