Pain of The Past, Hope of a Future

Chapter 12

Gwen took a breath and continued with what she was saying. "I know this doesnt excuse what I did. I just want to explain where my mind was." Gwen says looking at Daisy hoping she understood that she wasnt trying to excuse what she did.

"Please continue." Daisy says gently squeezing her hand. Gwen gave her a soft smile and gathered her thoughts still holding back tears.

"All I could think about is what she did. I couldnt stand the thought that she could take you away too. I just felt so helpless. I don't want you to die. I...I didnt want someone to die if I could stop it. I couldnt save Kevin...it was my fault he died. I didnt want it to be my fault that I lost you too." Gwen says crying a little at the thought that Sheath could kill Daisy.

"Hey, hey, look at me." Daisy says gently, guiding Gwens eyes back to her own. Those startling blue eyes almost knocked her breath out. She gently rubbed her thumbs against Gwens cheeks until she was in a calmer state of mind. "Okay, now that youre calmed down, may I say my piece?" she asks gently as she slowly lets go of Gwens face and takes her hand instead. Gwen nodded trying to stop her sniffling. Now, please listen closely. "What happened to Kevin wasn't your fault." Daisy said gently, Gwen looked ready to argue and Daisy shook her head. "No, you didnt go up to Sheath and tell her he was there, you didnt tell her to kill him."

"There was no way you could have known she was there. As far as you both knew it was just going to be a patrol nothing big right?" Daisy asked her and Gwen nodded after a moment of thinking. "See then it was not your fault. You did everything in your power to help him to prepare. Neither of you could have prepared for something like that. I dont know him well but, I think he wouldnt like you blaming yourself for what happened. He knows it wasnt your fault." Daisy says all this with a bit of stern tone. Gwen flung herself into Daisys arms, she needed to hear that. They broke apart after a minute. "Now think of how upset you were finding out Kevin had died. I want you to understand that you would bring that sadness to all us here...that sadness to me. It would have hurt so bad if I found you there dead in that alley. I know you can take care of yourself but, I still worry every day I will lose you to doing something reckless. I am sorry I yelled at you. I should have tried to tell you how I felt about you being so reckless. It scared me it was like you didnt have a will to live." Daisy says, beginning to tear up. "Gwen please realize that as much as you dont want to lose me that I just as much dont want to lose you either." Daisy says. The room went quiet again as Gwen took that all in.

Gwen reached over and took Daisy into her arms and hugged her fiercely. She missed this so much, she missed holding her girlfriend. It felt like a weight just slid off her shoulders. "I'm sorry" Gwen repeats over and over again realizing just how scared Daisy must have been. It tore up just thinking about what she put Daisy through. She can finally understand why Daisy had been upset. Sheath hadn't been her demon. She didnt need to fight this alone. She had Daisy and they could take on the world together side by side. Gwen finally pulled back and gently wiped the tears off Daisys face. She gave her a watery smile.

"Hi" Daisy says now with a watery giggle not able to help herself she felt a little giddy that they had talked it over and seemed to be on the same page. Gwen grinned at her and tapped her nose slightly making her brown eyes cross for a second. This made her dissolve into giggles that sounded a little like she was gurgling.

"Hey yourself." Gwen says trying a charming grin which just made Daisy laugh, her eyes shining with joy as she hugged Gwen again. They sank into each other's embrace snuggling close enjoying they were together again. Gwen felt her heart doing little flips in her chest and she nuzzled into her girlfriend that she missed so much.

"I am glad we talked." Daisy says, slowly pulling away from Gwen who missed her hug already.

"Me too. Thank you for listening to me." Gwen says while bringing Daisys hand up to her lips. She first kissed Daisys knuckles then the palm. Daisy blushed and smiled. Gwen slowly brought down their hands again and Daisy stopped whatever she was going to say. She blinked her eyes as if she was processing what she was seeing. Gwen at first was confused then a slow grin crossed her face as she realized Daisy noticed exactly what she was wearing.

"T-Thats my shirt...where..how...why?" Daisy squeaks in a rare show of being speechless. Gwen let the grin split wide across her face as she took in the cute reaction of Daisy.

"Well, you see, I kind of stole it after like our first official day of being girlfriends. After taking this time to think I thought it was rather appropriate to wear." Gwen says not even able to hide her grin or stop it. Daisy looked up at her eyes filled with confusion.

"Why?" Daisy asks softly. Gwen started to turn pink but the grin never left and she scratched her neck.

"I...I am in love with you...I love you Daisy!" Gwen says, then looks at Daisy who's eyes went wide. Daisy gasped and her hands flew to her mouth as she realized what Gwen said. She couldnt stop the tears from absolutely flooding into her eyes and taking over her vision. The joy that filled her to the brim could not be contained. Gwen began to get nervous but that stopped when Daisy practically pinned her to the couch.

"I LOVE YOU TOO!" Daisy says shouting with joy in her voice. This time Gwen could feel tears in her eyes. This is the best day in her life. Daisy pulled back and they shared a smile as they slowly closed in to each other.

"I just love you so much" Gwen mutters as she closes the space between them and gives the love of her life a fierce kiss. Little did they know just out of sight that the rest of the Secret Warriors were watching. Doreen started to squeal and Rayshaun quickly placed a hand over her mouth.

"Shhhh we dont want to ruin this. They deserve it." Rayshaun says softly. Then America taps him on the shoulder.

"You owe me twenty bucks." America whispers. Rayshaun groans softly, he was hoping she would forget that bet.

"Awww man!" He said softly as the rest of the hiding group laughed softly.

THE END