MANSION OF MEMORIES

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I was here infront of his grave. Only the sound of the dry leaves and the wind might hear. It's been a year since i visit him here. I became busy the past years and i can't stand seeing his graveyard. It only make me cry and feel how weak i am. We can't go back to yesterday but we can recall, reminisce and remember what we do. Taking risk yesterday making our tommorow easier. What we've done yesterday, what the desicion we do yesterday is life changing for tommorow. Everything happens yesterday teach us how to live easily. It helps us whatwe should be. I know wherever he was. He was happy seeing me grown up. He was my past yet he maid me realize what really the meaning of "sacrifice after sin we maid". After my visit in his graveyard. I cameback home. I open our mansion i can still remember  all the memories in the past. Every single happen in the past.

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I was standing on the edge of the door when xyprus approach me. " why don't you enjoy this day? It is the last day you will be free. If i were you i will really grab a chance before i will be tied doing nothing before it happens" im not feeling well knowing that xyprus will be my soon to be husband. I know he doesn't love nor like me from the very beginning but   i really love him. I might sound pathetic but what im going to do? I love him. I know he was provoking me, i know he doesn't like him being married with me. I know he love my sister but he can't say no to his father.  Our marriage is just a arrange married. Shot gun wedding to be exact. I came from school when my parents approached me. "Uhm...baby xhaina i know you will not disappoint us like what your sister does right?" My mom asked. " of course mom! I love you both. But why are you asking?" I answered and question her.i can see something  from her different. I feel like she was nervous telling me what it is.  " you gonna married xyprus turner.xhaiden i know it's hard but you need to save our family from shame". My mom answered in lower but pleading tone. "Mom he doesn't even love me nor know me personally"  we had a little argument that day but im pretty sure that i can't disobey them. I love xyprus but i dont want to push him into this marriage. Its just one month after i hear that news we really married and i feel that i am the  happiest girl in the world. But after the marriage i feel like im in hell.
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Reminiscing the past make my tear flow like a river. I maybe a crybaby but i always get hurt easily. I am Physically and emotionally weak. That why i always depend on my parents. But after our marriage i wasn't be able to see them again. I went to my car and drive back to our mansion.I open our mansion i can still remember  all the memories in the past. Every single happen in the past. our mansion is three-story. I can't call it a house because it really looks like a mansion. Even though it only has three floor.  You can't count how many ladder it has. If you are not familiar with the map of the mansion you will not be able to see the main door anymore. There's a lot of path way in our mansion but i dont know who design this. I only know that xyprus approved the design because it really needed specially there's a lot of person know us. My parent's and xyprus parents is in business industry. Just like his parent's xyprus is also a businessman. Im a fashion designer but i didn't work ever since i graduated. Im a weak persom and im easily get tired. That why they don't allow me to work. As i open the door i went first in the living room and sat for a couple of times. My mind occupy a scenario from the past.

___ Flashback ___
I was sitting here in the couch watching tv while waiting for xyprus. I was nervous not because maybe something bad happen to xyprus but because xyprus will hurt me again just like the other day. It's already ten o'clock  in the evening but still no sign of xyprus. I continue waiting until i heard a door open.i close the tv and went to the door. I was right when xyprus see me he immediately slap me two times "you bitch! Who allow you to show me your face!?" He said in higher tone. "You're a desperate bitch!! A pathetic whore!" He added. Just a few words but it break me a million times. I always hear it everytime we see each other here in the mansion i should be immune. I should me use to it but it feels like the word is new to me. My parent's never hurt me ever since I was young. Only xyprus did that. I was weak yeah. I can't protect myself i will only cry then im okay the other day. Maybe this is love you will sacrifice your own health,your own life and your heart just for the people you love. I maybe sound pathetic but i really love him to the point that i can sacrifice myself for him. I hurt him so i deserve his cold treatment. Love is suck. The most painful feeling in the world is loving someone who doesn't love you. But you still do. Because loving him is like existing. If you stop,you'll vanish.  Im still lucky because even though he forbid me to go outside of the mansion. He forbid me to talk to my parents and my friends outside he still let my bestfriend visit and talk to me but i still wasn't allow to go outside even though my bestfriend is here. My bestfriend knows everything xyprus did to me she always said that i need to stop this nonsense marriage because i will only hurt myself , way back in highschool and college she always defend me from everything from everyone. Unlike my bestfriend that strong and can handle herself me is weak i can't protect myself. I always need a person protect me. Im still lucky having her in my life. She doesn't want to see xyprus because she can't stand seeing xyprus while remembering what xyprus always did to me.  I remember when she visit me and xyprus is here she punch xyprus and she left . Xyprus punch me because of what my bestfriend did to him.
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