I Want to be with the Stars [COMPLETED]

I Want to be with the Stars Part 4 [FINALE]

[Best Rolling Girl chorus {In my opinion} I love it]

It was now January the 28th. Len was fourteen and was still watching the stars every night.

It seemed the only thing keeping him going was the thought that if he went with the stars he wouldn't be able to see how pretty they were from the ground. Although he wanted to be with his grandparents, he didn't do anything, he wanted to make them proud. So, he didn't die, cut, or cry. All he did was stare up at the sky praying that his life would turn around somehow.

That night, it had turned freezing cold. Too chilly for Len to sit outside, so he had to watch from his window.

He got out the telescope that he had received for his thirteenth birthday and set it by his window.

He sat down on a stool and looked through the lens.

For some reason, there was no noise that night, which made the stars shine almost as bright as they did two Falls ago at his grandparent's house.

That night was filled with quiet and emptiness, leaving room for Len's thoughts to fill it in. Beautiful memories and regrets. He wished he had spent more time with his grandpa and grandma. He wishes it so much, but he knows that dwelling on the past wouldn't get him anywhere.

Len knew that he needed to become an astronaut for the sake of his family. He told himself he wouldn't give up, but his heart was falling into a black abyss every minute he lived. Though, he didn't realize that his emotional and mental health was failing, and would lead to something much worse if he didn't seek help. He never did, and he probably never would.

Despite everything, gazing at the stars still cheered him up. It seemed to be one of the only things that did. It was the only thing that kept him alive. It was the only thing that kept him going, and lately, the stars shined brighter than they ever had. He told himself that it was grandma making all of the other stars happy for him. He told himself that they were shining bright for him, and when he told himself those things, he would grin and close his eyes.

***

A few months had passed and Len stood at the edge of the cliff that he had visited the warm summer night of his grandparent's death. He felt hesitation and at the same time like a failure. He would fail his grandparent's wish. He would fail at life and rise to the stars.

He smiled to himself, "At least I will see grandma and grandpa again."

The warm breeze brushed against his cheek, wishing him goodbye as he stepped closer and closer to the ledge.

And just as a foot stepped off that cliff the lights of nature shut off. The stars were gone. Startled, Len's body went off balance, and he descended below to the ground.

Len found that his life didn't flash before his eyes as the movies and books had said. Instead, he was plummeting to the ground knowing that the stars were no longer with him, they had shut off, and they didn't seem to be coming back.

In the end, he was alone.

In the end, he had died alone.

In the end, he knew that he wouldn't be seeing his grandparents.

In the end, he would die an unheroic death, with no incredible label attached to him. He wouldn't be that astronaut that flew to a new planet. He wouldn't be that loving father. All he would be was a child that jumped off a cliff on a breezy April night that no one cared for or knew well.

"I'm nobody." His words disappeared with the wind, never to be heard, and his feelings never to be known.

***

When the stars disappeared that night, they never did come back. Actually, no stars came back.

Len didn't know that his death, his suicide, would lead to the end of the whole planet because the Sun never did come back either.

The Earth didn't see its next sunrise, and it was forever covered in eternal darkness.

If only he had died of a natural death the world would still be alive, and the stars wouldn't be depressed. For, that boy was the only human they ever cared for, but they realized that their help wasn't enough, that in the end, he still died by his own will.

The stars were excepting to see Len the night he died, but he never did come.

He was lost in space, never to be seen or heard of again.

If only, they say, we had tried a little harder.

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