After it all Ended

A year later...

It's been a year.. since we've been together.
it's been a year... that i've had time to heal.
it's been a year... but i still haven't felt the same.
I've had time to heal and to forget what we had, but i can't let myself move on... I still think about you every day... every single day..

i had a dream about you the other night.. i didn't know how to feel and i was staring right at you..
we were standing outside.. the moon in the sky... even though it was a dream it felt so real.. i felt the warm breeze of the summer night...
i couldn't help but stare at you as you spoke.. "we have a new beginning"
and then it all disappeared. everything.
glistened away. into nothing.
and when i woke up, i couldn't move. i was staring at the ceiling. i forgot where i was for a second ...
i couldn't believe that i had seen you.
i still have no idea what it meant
when i finally was able to get myself together.. i started tearing up, crying. barely able to see my phone and the time... it was 4AM..
i tried to fall back asleep, but i couldn't.
For the thought of you lingered in my mind for the rest of the night.
I ended up falling asleep at dawn.

i still think about you every day ... i wake up to the thought of you... i go to work with the thought of you... i drive with the thought of you.. i fall asleep to the thought of you..

it's been a year... i still miss you..
it's been a year... i still want you..
it's been a year... i still love you...