D . I . E ?

THIRTEEN

POV: LANTIS

2 year later...........

Kamil looked at me from under his hoodie.
I tried looking back at him, but i couldnt risk showing him just how big my blush was.
So i looked away.

We took another turn and i was now facing home. It was chilly outside and i could feel the cold breeze on my skin. It had been a fun sunday at church and i had bumped into him on my way back.

I was in a long floral black and white backout dress and he was in blue jeans, sneakers and a black hoodie to match.

I gotta go Kamil. Thanks for the company back home.

I told him as i began to walk away.

Wait,  jus.....let me walk you a bit further.

You know i cant be seen with you right?

Yeah i know. I wont go far. Please.

Okay.
I finally gave in and let him walk me for a few more feet.
It was silent between us but not the akward kind of silence.
It was peaceful.

Until Kamil reached for my hand.
Goosebumps quickly erupted all over my body.
I quickly pulled away.

Seriously, the cold weather couldnt even make the goosebumps appear and now they appear bcoz he touched me!?

What the hell!!??

Don't you ARRHHH!!! Me. I can explain......well i can't and that's the problem.

Why?
I heard him say from beside me as we stopped to say goodbye infront of Jax's house.

Why are you my girlfriend when you won't even let me hold your hand?

I couldnt answer him that question.

I couldnt even answer myself that question.

I gotta go Kamil. Bye.

I said and quickly started to leave.

I love you.

He said and i froze . I looked back at him and i could see that he really meant what he just said.
I was looking for something to tell me he was lying on his face but i couldn't.
I didn't see anything but pure emotion.

I had never told him that before. He was always the one to tell me he loves me and i would reply.
It's not that i didn't want to tell him i loved him...i did.
I was just so.......

Aftraid.

I love you too.

And i was off.
.......

Yes.

I'm an idiot , i know.

I had planned that i was gonna let go of Kamil. I had planned on acting like he didn't exist.

But he did exist. And that made it hard for me to let him go.

So i didn't.

We had been dating ever since sixth grade during that 1 week trial.

It was nearly two yearrs later and i still liked him.

But still couldnt tell him. I couldnt let him know. I couldnt take the risk.

I walked in and greeted everyone.
Everyone consisted of my gran, her sis, my great gran, my uncle and his new wife.

Yeah. Her name was aunt Bee and i hated her for two reasons.

1 she made me work. All too often.

2 she cared about herself ohhh too much.

Selfish bitch!!

Anyway, i had told Kamil about my gran and how i couldn't let anyone know we were dating. So i had done a great job keeping him a secret.

Life had been great ever since. I was through with my seventh grade final exams. School was great, i had become the headgirl and noone suspected anything about any boyfriend.

Then things got even better. Vegas and Kay were coming that Wednesday.
Schools were closing on Monday and then we had to go to my grandadz place nearly seven towns away.

Then they decided it was time i got my own cell. So they gave me phone.

Who the hell said things couldnt get better coz then ....they did alright.

I was gonna miss Kamil but i needed the break. But i loooked for Fiona who lived ocross from us that Monday and told her i was leaving incase she bumped into Kamil and he was looking for me.

Then i remembered....i had a phone now!

I asked Fiona for Kamilz number and we began talking via Whatsaap.

That Wednesday........

Turned out Vegas and Kay werent coming over, they just herded straight to granddads and we would meet there.

This is when things began going all wrong.
First my siblings werent coming and then .......silly me forgot to keep my phone locked and my gran stumbled on Kamil' s chats in my phone.

I was screwed!!!!

I waited in  my room as they went through my phone. I wasnt crying.................

yet.

But my heart was heavy with fear.
What in hell had i done.

I waited for about half an hour before i was called for questioning in gran's room.

Those were the longest thirty minutes of my life.

I opened the door and let myself in.

Bracing for the worst to happen.

They were looking at me with disgusted eyes. They looked at me as if i had had sex with every male person i knew.

And newsflash,

I WAS STILL A VIRGIN!!!!!

I took a seat and the torment began. They started reading my texts with Kamil out loud.

Word by word!!

This was gonna be one loooongg talk.

~~~~~~~~~
Hey guys. I am sorry i had died these past weeks, or have they become months?
Anyway im sorry i wasnt updating looong story. If you were waiting up on this book, thanks and im sorry.

So i will now update a lot of chapters at once incase i diasppear again.

Again i am very sorry about this.

Please do continue reading. I appreciate your time .

Stay safe.

Stay Be You tiful ;-)

Natasha.