Hold on I still need you
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Sometimes you just got to get it all out, no matter what they say, just get it out. Because if you let it stay inside you, it will grow. It will grow and grow until you can't anymore, that's when you are breaking.
The breaking point is the worst
When it all falls apart in front of you, when your heart shatters and the sound of your sobs that you can hear, that's when you are breaking.
Many people hides it, they hide it behind a smile, a smile that some people smile back at, or look trough, both are hurtful. Knowing that they either know it, or can see it.
The part of when they can see it, and they wanna help, but you don't want help, or you do want help but you don't wanna ask for it, it's complicated and you don't want other people to deal with it.
The other part is when they can't see it, they can't see how much you are hurting or how much it breaks you slowly every day, you want to show them that you are breaking, but why?
But the worst point is when you hit the ground
When you are that deep down that the things that used to be happy and funny, turns sad and dark. You want to do the happy things but you are scared.
Scared that it will hurt.
So when you first start to realize that you are falling apart, then stop it, try to hold your heart together while you are finding a way to fix it.
Because after the heart is shattered, then no matter how hard you try to fix it, the scars will always be there....
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