RoNakshi SS : If Only I Knew Why

Part 3

...Rohit calling

She was about to pick up the call. But then decided against it. 

She looked at the orange jacket in her hand. And starts talking to it as if Rohit could listen through it.

Ab yaad aa raha hai ise ki Sonakshi naam ki bhi ek insan hai iski life me. Zarur hamare natak ka end karna hoga ise isliye plan discuss karne k lie phone kar rha hai. Par ab to Raima wapas aagyi hai, isse acha kya reason hai. Family bhi samajh hi jaegi ki Raima in toh Sona out.

 Tears roll down her eyes.

 I didn't do anything  bad to deserve all of this in my life. M not gonna care anymore

Blabbering all of this she slid the phone in her bag after changing the mode to silent.

She was about to hug the jacket but then threw it away in frustration for the lack of better options to vent it all out. 

She went out to the car where Shankar was waiting for her as she had an outdoor today. 

Sona : chalo Shankar

Malabar Hills

Ro : Ye Sonakshi phone kyu nai utha rhi.. sube se call kar rha hoon. waise maine to usse itne din tak ignore kardia to naraz to hogi hi wo.

...Par roz baat karna zaruri toh nai haina.. Fake gf hai real toh nahi.

 (His thoughts were having a debate of their own)

...To theek hai main bhi baat karne ko itna pareshan kyu hou. Jab free hogi to call karlegi. 

...Par agar nai kia toh. 

(He could not understand why was he this restless to talk to her once, he could not understand if she was just his habit or something more)

...yar ye usse roz baat karne ki adat hogyi hai aur kuch nai. kyunki aur koi dost nai haina mere, toh isilye. Pyar to mera Raima hi hai. Haina.

(He knew he needed to figure this out and who better to help him with that other than Sonakshi)

 Rohit : Ravi gadi nikaalo. Sonakshi ma'am k set pe jana hai

On set 

Spot : Sir, madam to aaj outdoor shoot pe gyi hain. Thodi der me aajaengi, aap chahe to unke room me wait karle ya thodi der baad ajaen

Rohit was not going anywhere without getting answers so he headed to wait in her room.

He opened the door and stepped in only to be stepping on some clothes. Sonakshi ka kamra itna messy. kaise. He bent down to pick it up and saw that it was his jacket. Realization hit him hard. It wasn't Sonakshi's mess. It was his. The one he created in her life. She wasn't upset or angry she was hurt. 

Maine usse khudse itta door kardia ki wo mujhe kuch keh bhi nai pai.. mera gussa ispe nikaal rhi thi. How could I do that. How!

Main soch rha tha ki ek ladki mere lie itta kaise kar sakti hai.. par isme maine ye realize nai kia ki maine uske sath kya kya kia hai! 

His knees gave way and he fell in her chair ,his head in his hands. 

Just then a spot came in to inform him that Sonakshi will get late in coming back

He picked up the paper pen kept on the table and started writing

Hi Sonkashi

Tumse milne tumhare set par aya tha. Par ab nahi janta tumhe face karne ki himmat hai ya nai mujhme. To bas ye letter likh kar ja raha hoon.

Hamesha tumhe Thankyou kaha hai. Shayad jab sorry ki zarurat thi tab bhi bas thankyou hi kaha hai. To aaj wo sare sorrys kehta hoon jo bohot pehle keh dene chahiye the.

I really wanna apologize Sonakshi. Not just for running away after Raima without thinking about you ,but for all the times I've hurt you unknowingly and getting away with it every time without apologizing or realizing it. You always forgave me even when I was the dorkiest of dorks. When I accused you of Pooji's incident. and manhandled you. You should have slapped me but what you did was forgive me and help me. When I didn't listen to you when you came home to explain things to me. How I taunted you for not being smart enough. When I made fun of your profession. For making you go through so much by asking you to do the gf bf drama. 

How will I ever be able to rise up to your level?!

But today I'm not gonna give any justifications and explanation for my actions.. I only want to say I'm very sorry. I promise to improve myself and be more understanding and I promise to try and handle things better when it comes to my past. 

Sonakshi you mean a lot to me and I don't ever wanna loose you.

Please call me if you read this and if you have it in your heart to forgive me this one last time 

He kept it on the table and left..

to be continued...

*It was supposed to be a one or max two shots thing but when I start writing, it just keeps going on and on. I'll try and end it in the next part. Thankyou

Precap : 

Radio in the car:

Mera Tumhara Kya Rishta Hai

Kuch Bhi Nahi

Agar Kabhi Tum Guzarta Dekho

Kya Tum Mujhe Bulaogi

Shayad Nahi

Agar Jo Phir Hum Kabhi Na Mile To

Kya Tum Yaad Aao Gi, Nahi

Kyun K Tum Meri Koi Nahi

Main Janta Hoon Magar

Ho Jab Meri Koi Nahi

Kyun Lagti Ho Mujh Ko Parai Nahi

Ho Ho Ho Ho

"Agar Raima k sath jo hai wo pyar hai to jo Sonakshi k sath hai wo kya hai"