Rula Ke Gaya Ishq Tera

Part 1

Everyone gathered at the garden area to bid a final goodbye to Shehnaaz. Her journey finally ended tonight. The house has given her so much that she could have not asked. She's thankful for everything she gained here.  

"Sana tum nahi jahrahi.. Mazak hoga.." Aarti assured. 

"Nahi Aarti.. Muhje jahna hai. Muhje nahi rehna aur yaha." She said with a lump in her throat.  

They hugged her one after another giving her a slow pat and wishing her all the best. Vishal hugged her a little tight. He has always been nice to her. Even though, they fight sometimes but she felt after Sidharth it was Vishal who understand her the most. He become like her and talk to her with the way she likes. And, he gave her time too. But she can't neglect the fact that they had hurt each other sometimes for game. However, their fights were never ugly that would leave a bruise in her heart. He would always be grateful to find a friend in Vishal. 

"Main tumhe bhot miss karuga. Bhar milegi na?" 

"Pata nahi.." She didn't want to make any promise with anyone when she doesn't have the power to keep her words. She didn't know what tomorrow has stored for her. 

Slowly,  she take her steps toward the man who stood a few feet away from the rest. His head was down when she approached him. He wasn't meeting her eyes. His hands were tucked in front pockets.

"Jah rahi hoon..  Dekho ge bhi nahi?" He felt a choke in her voice.  "Sidharthhh.." She called. He looked at her face for few seconds and his gaze dropped. He did not has the courage to look into her eyes. He just can't. His eyes were stuck looking at the green grass beneath his feet.  

"Itni bhi buri nahi hoon main.. Nahi main gandi hoon.." She still remembered all these words he has said to her. She just wanted to clear to him that she is nothing like he has accused her. Maybe he didn't mean it but the choice of words had bruise her heart. 

"Bhot pakaya hai maine tumhain.. Bhot irritate bhi kiya hai.. Bhot jaila hai tumne muhje.. Meri har ek galti ko nazar andaaz kiya hai.. Muhje bhot samjai bhi.. Joh sikahya hai voh kabhi nahi bhulungi." She waited for him to say but he remained quiet. It seems like she's going to speak her way out today.  

"Sidharthhh.." She called again, and received no replied from him. His gaze was stuck on the ground.  

"Apna khayal rakhna. Cigarette kam karna, please. Ek attachment chut jaigi once I'm out. Aur dheere dheere cigarette ko bhi chod dehna.. Main humesha tumhe khush dekna chahugi. Tu khush rehna aur jeet ke ahna.. Voh trophy muhje tere haath main dekhni hai.. Aur aab apne liye khel.. Please,  kissi ke saath jagra mat karna. Tera gussa bhot ganda hai,  aur tera ziada ho jahta hai. Apni zuban par bhi kabul rakhna. Aur jitne ki tiyari kar kyunki tuhi jite ga."  She smiled with moist eyes.  A part of her didn't want to go but another part of her wanted to run away from this house and him. 

The door finally opened.  She turned to confirmed and she heard a soft hissed coming out of him. She looked at him. Yet again,  he was not meeting her eyes. She bite her low lips giving strength to herself to continue her final words for him.