I'm so stupid why did I even think about looking for a boyfriend, I can't go on a date. I don't want to fall in love, what if he doesn't love me back. WAIT. I have a plan.
Rachel
Rachel I need to talk to you it's really important!!
Okay what's up?
Do you think it's stupid if I like paid someone or something to make them be my fake boyfriend?
UMM REPEAT
SERIOUSLY RACHEL
who what when where why
JUST ANSWER THE QUESTION
I mean yeah kinda why don't you just go out?
Well I don't wanna fall in love, but I just want my dad to pay attention to me and I think if I had a boyfriend he would.
Awwe baby
Why wouldn't you wanna fall in love?
Because I don't want them to hurt me like my dad does and I just am scared to lose someone if I end up falling for them.
Wait a minute
Are you talking to someone?
Uh well I kinda went on a website and found this boy and we're supposed to go out. So yeah.
WHATTTTT
Yeah but I don't want to date. I have a plan okay. Basically I wanna like talk to him and see if he's down to like be my fake boyfriend yk and obviously since I'm poor as shit I can likeee pleaseeee him as payment.
DIEOIEENSNSISBDUDJ
RACHEL!!
THAT. IS. AMAZING.
REALLY? Okay I'm gonna tell him about it on the date!
Okay good luck!
Thank you!! Goodnight love you!!
I love you too! :)
*Conversation ends*
I was so stressed at this point tomorrow was gonna be veryyyy interesting. I shut my phone off and set my alarm for 10am. Goodnight.
*BEEP BEEP BEEP* God my alarm is annoying. It was now 10:15 and I finally finished scrolling through my phone and got out of bed. "Morning Andrew." I said walking passed him to the bathroom. "Mornin." He seemed odd today. I don't think he came home last night. Weird. I went in the bathroom and did all my skincare. My favorites are pretty much just everything off of Florence.
Once I finished I needed to go to the bathroom. I started scrolling through TikTok and I saw a bunch of Thirst traps. Which kinda got me in a freaky mood. I turned on the shower and ran back to my room to grab my vibrator. I ran very fast so that nobody saw me with it.
I turned on my Spotify playlist and hopped in the shower. I laid on the bathroom floor and turned it on med speed. It felt so good. (this is so uncomfortable to writeeee) I wish it wasn't a vibrator doing all the work though. I slowly started to twitch and I turned the speed to high. Next thing you know a couple seconds later I reached my breaking point. I sat there out of exhaustion for a minute because I always get tired after I do that.
I got out of the shower and grabbed my stuff. I opened the door and- SHIT. "Andrew! Uh hi!" He immediately looked at the stuff I was holding. "Fuck." I looked down, I literally was dying of embarrassment.
"Morgan, what the fuck is that?" He said with disgust. "Uh. It's uh it's— I FUCKING KNOW WHAT IT IS MORGAN!" He said cutting me off. "THAT IS FUCKING DISGUSTING YOU WHORE." Wow. I don't even know what to say. He has never said something like that to me before. "Excuse me?! I can do what I want Andrew! Plus where the fuck were you last night huh!?" Right away he gave me a disgusted look. I looked at his neck and guess what I saw. A hickey. "Hm what's this." I flicked it. "What does it fucking look like dumbass." He's such a dick. "YEAH MORGAN MAYBE I WAS OUT LAST NIGHT BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING OKAY!" He screamed In my face. He was definitely hungover. "Oh yeah because this hickey explains it all." He got even closer to my face. He was honestly scaring me at this point. "You know what fine. My girlfriend cheated on me last night. So you know what, I FUCKING CHEATED BACK AND CLEARLY YOU'RE A WHORE JUST LIKE HER. NOW LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!" He stormed off into his room. I'm surprised he didn't wake my dad up. My eyes started filling with tears. Maybe I am a whore.
⚠️‼️warning self harm‼️⚠️
I'm so stupid. I hate myself. No wonder my dad doesn't love me. I kicked my vase of flowers over off my dresser, the glass shards were everywhere. I started overthinking too much until eventually it all went downhill.
I grabbed a piece of the broken glass and held it over my wrist. I started pressing it onto my cold, wet skin. I dragged it over my skin making lines. 1 cut for my mom, 1 cut for my brother, 1 cut for my dad, and 10 cuts for me. I started losing track of how much I was cutting until eventually I couldn't.
A/N: HEY GUYS I HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER!! I LIKED THIS ONE IT WAS QUITE INTENSE IS I DO SAY SO MYSELF. DO NOT WORRY YOU WILL BE GETTING SOME FINN ACTION NEXT CHAPTER!! IM VERY EXCITED FOR NEXT CHAPER I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE TOO!! DON'T WORRY IT WILL BE OUT VERY SOON!!
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FanfictionA story of a girl who's passionate to prove her dad she is more than she seems, with help of Finn she can.
