LOST (Oscar Diaz x reader)

CHAPTER 5

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Me and y/n sat here and cuddling might be my highlight, I hope that these few weeks I can bring peace to her mind

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Oscar's POV:

I lift y/n gently off the sofa bridle style while looking at her soft and adorable face continuing to walk her to the bed, gently putting our blankets over her body. 

i wait until i hear body shuffles coming from the room i look behind to see a tear covered y/n wearing my hoodie, i run up to her i and hugs her softly while leaving loving kisses on her head 

Y/N POV:

Me and Kaname are sitting on the sofa watching horrors together in our dream living room until a loud thundering knock attacks the whole house kaname runs up and gets the door and as swiftly as he was there he was gone, He is dead 

I wake up and sit up tears running down my face i cover my cry's with the pillow next to me and i see one of Oscars hoodies and i take it so i can feel a little bit happier, but it just made me think if i wasn't with Oscar i would have been with him no drama and he would still be here watching horrors with me or cooking together.

and now here i am finding myself in Oscars arms again, somehow i find myself lately in his arms feeling safe and unharmed although our surroundings are chaotic and dangerous. 

he rubs my head gently making me feel okay. But i lost my brother, my best friend i wont ever fully recover

Days after his death and I'm still in sweats and oversized clothes, as you can guess I'm not coping well. My mind keeps racing a thousand thoughts per minute I can barly keep up, my thoughts are happy for 2 seconds and my brain says you can't be happy without him because without him you would be nothing, be gone he saved you so many times but you never realised how special he was until he was gone but it's not like he's gone to England, France or new York for a little vacation. He's fucking dead.

I won't see that smile again, I won't hug him again. Eat with him again. He won't open his eyes again or walk through our fucking door again.
I will fucking kill her.
I want to see her dead fucking body lying there after i make her pay for what she has done to me.

I wipe my tears and put some clothes on while Oscar gives me a confused look
"Does she have any family by any chance"
His face changes to confused to shocked
"Don't stoop to her level y/n please"

"Oscar I don't have a choice she deserves this and after I see her in pain I shall do it again and again until she can no longer take it i won't kill her she'll do that well enough for herself"
I leave his room with my shit and pack everything that's mine I got to comforable with him I need to get myself together I don't need Oscar I will destroy her by myself if I wasn't with Oscar kaname would still be alive so thank you so fucking much dumbass I don't want him to be in my head for a second.

I got to mine and threw on kanames top and a skirt with fishnets and my trusty gun holder.
Cuchillo is a dead bitch...

A/n
I'm literally the worst I'm so sorry I haven't posted since lockdown holy macaroni I lost the will to write please comment any suggestion on what you would like or how I could make my writing better I won't be offended I hope you all have a good day or night :)))