Falling

Part 5

Dan's pov. *couple of weeks later.*
The last few weeks were amazing. The shows were great and it was fun all the time. Well, not when Platz was shouting at me for not eating, but I didn't care anymore. I was trying to eat more and more but I never had appetite for anything. Even my favourite meals were disgusting these days. I knew it was driving Platz mad but I couldn't help it. I still ate it but Platz never said that I had eaten enough. I always had to eat more. But I refused. He got mad at me every single time but I learned to ignore him. Which actually made him even madder and resulted in avoiding each other that night. So yeah, I was actually pretty lonely. Platz only was nice to me during the day if I had had breakfast. If I didn't he would ignore me and not even look at me all day. I don't even know how he managed to do it because I was nothing without him. And so I was nothing today. I had skipped breakfast and he was ignoring me again. If I came close to him he would walk away from me. But I needed to speak to him. I waited until after soundcheck, New York tonight, to speak to him. But as I had predicted he walked away when I walked to him. "Platz wait, I just want to talk to you!" I yell after him and he stops. "What is so important?" He bluntly askes back. "Why are you ignoring me? You only do it when I don't eat enough." I say. "Are you that blind? You didn't want to eat when I was nice to you, so now you'll have to learn the hard way. You eat and I'll be nice to you and be your loving boyfriend, You don't eat and I'll ignore you." he says back and walks away. I suddenly understand everything. I'll be fat if he loves me then. I run out of the venue to the bus and into the kitchen area. I make some sandwiches for myself and run back with them. I walk into the room where the others are. "Aaah nice, some sandwiches." Ben says and he wants to get one. I turn away from him. "They are mine. Make some for yourself." I say angrily and sit down on a stool in a corner of the room to eat them in peace. I see someone sit next to me, Platz. "You saw the light?" He asks me. "Yeah, I just want to be with you. I can't stand it when you're ignoring me." I say and feel my cheeks get red. "It wasn't nice of me but I needed you to eat again. Will you do that now, for me?" He asks and looks at me. "Yes." I say back and kiss him. He kisses back and this time no one interrupts us. I pull back and just look at him. He is so perfect. "Get a room next time yeah." Wayne says and he laughs. I knew that someone would say something like that and I try to ignore it. But I can't. A tear rolls down my cheek and of course Platz sees it. "We don't say anything like that when you and Alexandra are licking each others faces off, so why do you have to say anything when we just kiss! It's so unfair!" He shouts at Wayne. "Woah, I'm sorry mate." "I'm not your mate, not anymore. You just ruined that." Platz says and storms out of the room. I stand up to follow him but when I get to the door Wayne stops me. "Let me go!" I say. "No, you are not going anywhere. You need to stop it. You can kiss whenever you want, but just not for everyone to see it." he says to me. I push him aside and open the door. I walk out and slam it behind me. Why is he doing this? I thought he was happy for us?
I go looking for Platz. He is sitting on the edge of the stage. I go sit next to him and we stare at the empty venue. "We'll finish this tour but then he is out of the band." Platz says. "That's not nice to say. He just needs some time." I say back. I don't want to kick Wayne out of the band. He just isn't being nice rn. I hear a lot of screaming and decide to go back. I open the door to see Ralph fighting with Wayne, and Pelham versus Ben. Greg is trapped in a corner of the room, and it looks like he is frigtened. I run to Pelham and Ben and pull them apart. "What is this about?" I yell at them. I see from the corner of my eye that Platz had trouble pulling Ralph and Wayne apart. I walk to them and pull Ralph away so that Platz only has to stop Wayne. And it works. "Why the hell are you fighting?" I ask. "He shouldn't have said those things." Ralph says. "But why did you pick a fight?" "I didn't. I just slapped him. He punched me back. And then it's war." Ralph says and I look at Wayne. "Is this true?" "yes." and he bows his head. "Why the hell are you doing this? Hating on us? I thought you were happy for us? And now you're saying all these things? What's wrong with you?!" I yell and walk away, not even wanting to hear what he has to say. "I never liked the 2 of you being together. But I have always kept my mouth shut. And now it's time to let it out." Wayne says back. "Well, I don't know what happened to you, but you used to be a loving, caring guy and now all you can do is hate! Platz was right about kicking you out of the band. And I will." I say and walk out of the door. I'm seriously done with him. I used to trust him with all my problems, and I could talk to him about anything. I walk back to the stage, and sit down where we were. I notice Platz sitting next to me. "he is an asshole." he says and I nod. I totally agree with him. We sit in silence for a couple of minutes before someone walks to us. "You need to get out of here before the people come in." he says to us. "And what if we want to stay here? We surely can?" Platz asks the guy. "Yeah, you can. But it's at own risk." the guy says and walks away. We move so that we are more on the stage, outside the reach of fans. "But what if Wayne keeps going on with this? Do we really need to kick him out of the band?" I ask Platz. "If he doesn't stop and apologise we surely have to. I don't want to be in a band with him if he acts like that." Platz says. "But if we really have to kick him out, who do we replace him with?" "One of the To Kill A King lads? Since Ralph left they are workless. I kept in contact with Josh, and he said that Grant is the only one who found a job, at a supermarket. And he is helping everyone with that money while he can barely manage for himself. They all live together now in a tiny flat, playing on the streets to get some money. We seriously need to help them." platz tells me and I'm shocked. "But what about the Bastille lads? They are all best friends. Can't they help them?" "Do you really think that they have more to spend. McDonalds isn't a place to make big money either." Platz says and from the corner of my eye I see some doors open. The people can come in any moment. "Yeah, you're right. But we need to get out of here. Or we have a bunch of screaming fans." I say and we laugh. Platz stands up and pulls me up and we walk off stage. We walk back into the room we were before and we see that Ralph and Pelham are sitting on one couch on one side of the room, and Wayne and Ben are on the other side. Greg is still sitting on the stool in the corner, going trough the photos he made. I grab the other stool and sit next to him. "What are you doing?" I ask. "Well, just going trough photos I made and deleting the bad ones." he says to me. "Can I join your little party here?" Platz says and I look up. "You can sit on my lap." I say and Platz sits down. It is quite nice actually. I wrap my arms around him and he leans backwards. I look at the pics Greg is showing and I notice a really nice one of me and Platz. We were sitting on the edge of the stage somewhere, his head on my shoulder and my head softly resting on his. It just looked so cute. "That's a good one." I say. Greg looks at me. "Yes, I thought so too." he says. My brother Mac, who is also our manager while we are touring here in America, comes into the room. "Up in 20." He says and turns around to walk out of the room. But he turns back. "Did something happen here?" He asks. "They were hating on Dan and Platz." Ralph says and points at Wayne and Ben. "Can you not be so childish please? And where is Dan anyway?" He asks. "I'm right here." I say and he looks at me. "I didn't see you for a sec. And if you would just start eating, you look like a walking skeleton." "But..." "No buts, I'm your older brother so you'll have to listen to me." Mac says. "I'll be so glad to be back in Amsterdam. No you around correcting me on everything." I say back. Mac just stares at me and closes the door behind him. "That wasn't nice." Platz says. "Well, it's the truth. Deal with it." I say. It stays silent for a while. Greg is making sure his camera is ready and we just sit in silence, and it stays silent until Mac comes in again. "Up in 5, let's get moving." He says and everyone jumps up. Platz turns around and we kiss. "Break a leg." he says. "Do you seriously think that that's a good idea? A wheelchair isn't nice." I joke and we both laugh. As I look over his shoulder I see Wayne staring me to death. I hug Platz and whisper something in his ear. "Be glad that looks don't kil because Wayne would have murdered me." I say and pull back. Platz turns around and I see him getting mad. He runs to Wayne but Ralph stops him. "You don't want to do this." he says to Platz and he seems to calm down a bit. "You are out of the band at the end of this tour." I say to Wayne. "Well, I can quit right now, so why won't I?" He says and walks out of the room. "Well shit." I heard Ben say. "Was that really nessasary?" He asks me. "Didn't you hear what he said? And you were on his side all the time so you need to be really carefull from now on." I say. "I can fall in for Wayne, I learnt all the songs." Ralph suddenly says. "Well, that's another problem solved." Mac says and I only now notice that he was still in the room. "You have to go on stage now." he says and I nod. I give Platz one last quick kiss and we walk out of the room. Ben goes on stage first and the audience goes crazy. Then I walk on and they cheer even harder. I grab a mic and wait for them to calm down. "Hello New York!" I say. Everyone cheers again. When they have calmed down again I speak again. "As you may know our drummer injured his shoulder so we have someone to replace him for a while. Please welcom Pelham!" I say and some people cheer. "And I have another thing to say. As you might have noticed there is a spot next to me free. Well, Wayne got ill so we also needed to find someone to replace him tonight. He didn't have that much rehearsal time so don't judge him for making any mistakes. Please welcome our mate Ralph!" And some more people cheer. "Let the night begin!" I yell and we start playing Round and Round.
We play song after song and I notice a girl in the crowd that looks a lot like Platz. It's really weird. They could be related, but I thought he didn't have any family left. I forget about it and focus on the last song of the evening, Radioactive. I walk to the drums and start playing. The guys join in one by one and when it's my turn to sing the audience sings along. It is amazing to see and from the corner of my eyes I see that Greg is making lots of pictures. The song finishes and we gather at the front of the stage and take a bow. We walk off and I high-five Platz. "It was amazing!" I yell in anthousiasm. "And Ralph, you were amazing! When did you learn to play all our songs?" I ask him. "Thanx, and while you were away on tour and I had nothing to do I started to play and learnt all the songs." he says and I can't stop smiling. Or maybe I can. I see Mac walking towards me with a plate of sandwiches and I know that they are all for me. I turn and run away as fast as I can. I run back to the stage and over it. But as I reach the other side Mac stops me and swings me over his shoulder. "Let me go!" I say and slam on his back. He doesn't let go and I hear people laughing. It are some fans that were still standing there. The girl that looks like Platz is also still there. I wave at them and they wave back. We go off stage again and Mac puts me back on the ground. Platz stands next to me with the sandwiches. I run again and make it to the other end of the stage again before I'm stopped. I'm picked up again and this time it's Platz. "You really are not being a nice boyfriend right now." I say. "I know." platz says and he continues to walk back. The fans laugh again. I see that Platz looks at them and he seems to slow down. He must have noticed the girl. When we ate backstage again he puts me down and looks at me. "Did you see that girl?" He asks me. I nod. "Come with me then." He says and drags me along with him. I try my best to keep up with him but he is like speedwalking. He seems to notice though and slows down. We walk out and towards the bus. There are no fans yet luckily. He opens the door of the bus and we go inside. "Wait here." he says and I sit down on the couch. He climbs the ladder to the bunks and comes back with something in his hand. He sits down next to me. "When my parents died all their belongings were stored somewhere. When I was adopted I had to search trough all that stuff to look for stuff I wanted to keep. I found this." he says and shows me a picture. It's picture of 2 babies, almost identical. "I'm the left one, and the one on the right is my twin sister. I never knew her because she was put up for adoption. Apparently my parents only wanted one kid." he says and starts crying. I wrap my arm around him. "Let's go back to her then." I say and he looks up. "Do you want to help me. I'm way to nervous." he asks me. "Of course Platz." I say and we stand up and walk out again. But before we can someone knocks on the door. I open and see Josh standing there. "Hey little brother." he says to Platz and they hug. "I need to go, but you can come along." Platz says to him and we run back inside, hoping she is still there. We run past all the others onto the stage. And there she is, just walking out. Platz jumps off stage and she turns around at the sound. He runs towards her and Josh helpes me off stage. We walk after him until we are a few metres away. "What is your name?" I hear Platz ask her. "Camille." she says back. "Okay, this might sound weird, but I have the idea that you could be my twin sister that I never met." he says to her and shows her the picture. She pulls something out of her jean pocket and it's the same photo. The look at each other and Platz suddenly hugs her. "Hi sis." he says to her. "Hi bro." she says back and they laugh. "Do you want to come with us?" He asks her. "Yes please, I would love to." she says and they come walking towards us. "You have a brittish accent." platz suddenly says. "Yeah, I grew up in Leeds." she says back. They stand next to us. "Are you going to introduse me to your friends?" She asks and looks at me. "Well, guys. This is my long lost twin sister Camille. Camille, this is ny boyfriend Dan." He says and points at me. I just smile back. "He is very shy at first, but once he gets to know you better he'll warm up." he says and I give him a death stare. "And this is my non-biological brother Josh." he says while pointing at Josh. "Nice to meet you." he says to her. "Nice to meet you too." she says back. "And what do you mean by non-biological?" She asks Platz. "If you were in the hope of finding your biological parents, forget it. They died a long time ago." Platz says and looks the other way. "So we are actually both adopted." she says and pokes him. He smiles at her. "Yes." I suddenly hear someone singing. "When all of our parents are dead and just a memory. And we're side by side it's always been just you and me." "Ralph, stop twisting lyrics!" I shout and walk back to the stage. Ralph is sitting on the side. "Not funny yeah." I say and walk away again. Platz and Camille are laughing. "Why the hell are you laughing? Everyone is against me today." I say and walk to the exit doors. No one follows me and that is good. I want to be alone. I walk outside and luckily there aren't any fans around. I walk away, into the city. I put the hood of my hoodie on to stop anyone from recognising me. I walk to the nearest metro station and wait for the next metro to arrive. Luckily I don't have to wait long. I step in and there are still seats free. I look out of the window and see Platz running onto the platform but the doors have already closed. We start moving and he notices me but it's too late already. The tunnel goes black and now it's just waiting for the next stop.

Platz' pov.
I see Dan sitting in the metro but I'm too late, it's leaving already. It goes around the corner and a few seconds later it's out of sight. We are never going to find him. New York is way to big.