Poems not done by a pOeT

Having Fun

It was suppose to be fun
And it's not like I've never done it before
This time shouldn't be any different
I'll just have three shots
Instead of two

Let's get fucked up
Blackout drunk, just once
Just to see how it feels

I don't need this. I want this.
It's just for fun
That's all.
A one time thing.
At least that's what i said yesterday
Tonight I'll take as many shots as I want.
I just don't wanna regret never doing this when I'm older.

Today, we can try getting high
Weed doesn't even hurt you
I'll be fine.
This weekend let's try getting cross faded.
I've never done that before.
Trust me it'll be fun.

How many drinks can you take before throwing up?
I don't know. Guess i'll just have to find out
This will be fun.

It's not like i do it everyday
I'm fine.
I'm okay.
I promise
Just hand me the bottle.

We're just doing what teenagers do.
It's just for fun.

"I can do one more."
One more puff.
"I can do one more."
One more sip.
"I can do one more."
One. More. Hit.

It's just innocent fun.
I'm happy.
Having the time of my life.
"Whenever I'm happy i think it'll last forever."
But it doesn't.
So go have fun while it lasts.
While that happiness still looms over you
And still swells Inside

It was supposed to be fun
Now all I think
Is how much fun i'm not having
But instead how everytime i see alcohol
Drugs
Or anything that can intoxicate me
I don't want it.
I need it.
I wouldn't say no if you offered
I never turn down a good time

But I'm not happy at all
Not sad either
I'm nothing.
I feel nothing.
But sometimes that's just what happens when you're having fun.

*This is based on one of my favorite shows euphoria and my own experience with substance usage*