My Boy (girlxgirl)

eight

Later that night, Billie went home. I'm gonna be honest, tonight really shook me up. I couldn't figure out how the man had gotten in, or where I had recognized him from. Half of his face was covered and he was wearing dark glasses, so I marked it off as my imagination. Something about the situation just seemed... off.
The next day, ,
A ding from my phone shook me from my sleep and I saw a notification from Billie.

Billie: You down to hang tonight?
Zac: Sure, what time?
Billie: Around 8 work?
Zac: Yeah

This was beyond amazing. I was texting BILLIE EILISH. It was a dream come true for me. The problem was that I was lying to her. She thought I was a guy named Zac. If only she knew the truth, and could just accept me for who I was.

I sighed, sat down on my bed and scrolled through instagram. I had a DM request, which was weird because I usually never get those. I opened it, and it said:

voppagedd1: I'll be back tonight.

what? who was this from? who could this be?? i was honestly shocked and my mind immediately went to what happened last night, but i figured, this is my personal instagram. as a girl. how could this person know?

i dismissed the DM and cleaned up my hotel room. I was tired, and honestly hadnt been sleeping very well these past few days. Just my mind keeping me up. My mind drifted.

2:00
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7:00

knock knock.

i awoke from my sleep with a jolt. i grabbed my phone. 8:00?? SHIT!!

My dude make-up wasn't done, i was dressed in my normal clothes, i was NOT AT ALL ready for Billie right now.

"u-uh, coming!" i said in a deep voice. i was blessed with a naturally deeper voice, and for that right now i was thankful. i slipped on a pair off baggy pants and boxers, a plain shirt and a leather jacket. i messed up my hair a little and checked myself out in the mirror. i looked acceptable, so i opened the door. Billie was standing there, smirking.
"what's up loser," she said as she walked in.

we walked out to the balcony and sat down on the bench.

"how you feeling?" she asked.
"im good, just bored. what about you?" i asked.
"man, i'm still shaking from last night. that was really crazy."
"it was, i'm so sorry you had to deal with that." i said, trying to be kind.

billie looked out into the sky, she tried saying something but a quiet sob came out instead. her eyes were glistening in the moonlight that was illuminating the night sky.

"i- zac... what you did for me... protecting me..." she said, her voice quivering. "that really made me feel safe. you make me feel a way no one has ever made me feel. i know we've only known each other for a few days but i... i love you zac. i love the way you treat me. you're just so different from other guys." she said, as she looked down at the floor.

yeah, because i'm a girl.

"bil... i feel the same way about you. you're so special to me." i said. i was so shocked she said that, i had never seen this side of her before.
i held her hand, and she put her head on my shoulder. we felt the cool night breeze on us as we looked out at the starry night sky before us.

i looked at billie, her beautiful hair slightly blowing in the cool breeze. i started to tear up. how had i gotten myself into this situation? why did i have to catfish her... why did i have to fall in love with her? why did i...

have to tell her the truth...

"b-billie, i..."
i was cut off by her warm lips against mine. her hand trailed up to my face, kissing me tenderly. she was so gentle right now, and she seemed very vulnerable. i let my hand run through her soft hair. she pulled away, and i saw she was crying.
"i trust you, zac." she said, her voice cracking.

shit.

"billie, i need to talk to you about something..." i said.
"you can tell me anything, zac." she said.

"i uh, i don't know how to say this...let me have some time to figure out what i should say..." i spoke.
she nodded.

i thought deeply, should i tell her i'm a girl but everything i've said and done are my true feelings for her?
should i tell her i'm gay?
should i tell her how much i love her?
that i'm in love with her?

i figured i should just tell her the truth.
i softly said "billie, i..."

but she was asleep. she had fallen asleep on my shoulder and was sleeping so soundly.
"i can't wake her up now..." i thought.

i took her in my arms and carried her to my bed. i put her under the blanket and climbed in beside her, holding her hand as i drifted off to sleep, not worrying about one single thing at that moment.