𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙪𝙩 / 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙮𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨' 10𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧

to my first loves skz

dear stray kids,

this is a letter from the 13 year old me who fell in love you and the 17 year old me who slowly fell out of love with you as well. i wrote this letter because i think we need a proper goodbye and that it is about time we got the closure we needed.

from the age of 13 to the now 17 year old me, in the 4 years i loved you, you were the most important people in my life and you will always have a special place in my heart.

you don't know me like i know you as a fan and you might not even get the chance to read this but i just want you to know how much you eight have changed me.

you brought so much love, happiness and excitement to my life which made me realise how amazing it is to give your heart to someone.

i'm glad that you guys were the ones i gave it because you guys were the only people who i felt truly understood me back then.

you always told us stays how much you believed in us and you helped me see myself in a better light.

you made me happy through all my darkest times and made me realise that i should love myself.

i thought you guys were the most perfect beings that ever walked this earth and honestly i still secretly do.

of course you all had your flaws too but they made me love you even more because they were what made you unique.

i started to dream because of you and you always encouraged stays to make them come true.

we never got the closure we deserved because i was scared that i will never come back, but i think it's important for me to write this letter to you.

i want you to know that, no matter how heartbroken i am to be writing this letter, it is still worth it to me, just to remember the memories.

the love i have for you will never completely fade away but i think we should end our chapter here.

i hope you know that many stays are always looking after you and it eases my heart because you deserve all the love and happiness which i failed to give.

i won't be able to there beside you to see your many dreams come true.

from the bottom of my heart, i truly hope that your present is everything you want it to be and more. you taught me how to love and i will forever be grateful for sharing a part of my life with you.

our beautiful story ends here. you were my first love and it's time to find my last, with this letter i am writing to you my final words i never got to say.

and to do that, i need to have a proper goodbye with you that i never got to have.

you may never read this but i just want to let you know that i loved you guys more than i think i could ever love someone.

the memories of our time together will always make me smile and i hope that you are always happy, i pray that you will walk down a path full of happiness and i know that stays will ensure that.

i will no longer visit your pages when i'm lonely and i will no longer watch the videos that brought so much joy, laughter and tears to me.

i had the time of my life with you but the time has come to leave the past behind and start over, with the hope that i'll love my last loves at least as close as to how much i loved you.

goodbye my dearest first loves, i will never forget you because i wouldn't be who i am right now if it weren't for you.

from the girl who loved the eight of you with all her heart,
siya.