Deadly Demands

My Best Friend ; Ana

I have this new best friend,

She lets me call her Ana,

My family hates her,

But there all just bitter.

Ana tells me jealousy doesn't get you anywhere,

She also tells me her secrets,

She tells me not to eat,

Because that's the only way to get thinner.

Ana says thin is beautiful

and i guess shes right.

But the monster inside me keeps on growling,

Ana says its right,

The dizzy spells are making me sick

And i really need to vomit.

Ana makes me purge sometimes,

Especially when i eat,

She says foods the demon

And that i should not worship thee,

She likes to see me in pain,

So i can earn her respect again.

How much i love Ana,

She truly is amazing,

3 months down,

that's equivalent to 30 pounds

and inches off my waist.

Although i love this Ana,

I have to keep her a secret,

My mum just thinks I'm a picky eater

But only if she knew.

5 months down the line

and i don't feel much thinner,

I look into the mirror

And see this obese sinner,

Ana is disappointed,

She forces me to vomit,

I run into the bathroom

And worship at her feet,

How much i love this Ana

How much i would do for thee

7 months down the road

they begin to suspect things,

I've been diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa

But that's just your full name,

I tell them its nothing to worry about,

Because your my friend and its just a game,

I haven't heard from you in days

Ever since they found out,

I'll do whatever it takes,

To know your around.

I soon run to the bathroom

and proceed to worship,

I starve myself for weeks

until my body collapses.

You see i had this friend named Ana,

She wasn't really there,

She tricked my mind into doing stuff,

That wasn't really fair,

She was always better,

Stronger and proud,

She had a greater will power,

And that is what i needed.

I see you like to play hide and seek

You hide my actual figure,

Replacing the bones with fat,

Making me look bigger.

You replaced my hunger with satisfaction

And made me feel happy inside,

You switched my emotions,

The wrong and the right.

You cursed upon my life

I was to dumb to realize,

I guess in this so-called game,

Your titles the winner..

Because i collapsed again

But this time it was bigger...

• Jada Lee •