Dying to Love

Prologue

Chloe's POV:
"I can't believe you! I can't believe you just did that!" I yelled at my boyfriend, Damien. He was the worst of the worst. He has done so many bad things but this crossed the line.

"I don't see what the big deal is...." Damien said with a smirk on his face and with his hand in his luscious brown hair. He is wearing the green hoodie which he knows I love but right now I don't care.

"You don't see why it is a big deal! You are unbelievable! You were flirting with another girl and when I came to confront you you blew me off like I was nothing!" I said while holding my chest feeling the pain, hurt and embarrassment creeping back up. The pain of seeing him flirting with another girl, the hurt coming from him blowing me off in front of everybody and the embarrassment of feeling not good enough for him to be loyal and respect me, is crawling up my chest and feels like it's suffocating me.

"I was with my friends! You know how I have to act in front of my friends!" He says as he looks at me as if he was looking for understanding. He knows that I always try to understand him and put him first. I understood that he really cared about his reputation and that he cared about what his friends thought. He was a popular jock while I was just a bubbly girl who never hid who I was. I wasn't popular and I didn't care because I wanted people to love me for me but I tried to hide it for him.

I went as far as letting him hide our relationship from everyone. I thought that if he was loyal, than it didn't matter who else knew. But I guess he didn't see it the same way.

"You weren't with your friends when you cheated on me!" I said hitting my hand on my leg. I was so angry, angry at him for me treating me bad and angry at myself for letting him.

"Do you have to bring that up again!" He yelled as he stood up.

"That happened just a couple of months ago! At least that was the time that I know of!" I said as I threw my hands up in despair and in tiredness.

"I only cheated once and that was because I was so drunk and lonely! You were away for weeks! Okay and I know that doesn't make it okay!" He said as he crossed over the room and came and hugged me. I tried to fight my way out of his arms, but as a much bigger, stronger guy I had a hard time getting out. I decided to just stop and hug him. 

This was the thing about being with Damien he always brought the strongest emotions out of me, he could make me smile bigger and make me happier than anyone else, but at other times he can cause me the most pain I have felt in my life. Even with all the good times, I don't think that it's enough anymore.

"I promise you I will change. And I have! I will show you that I did over and over again!" He said as he leaned his head on my shoulder and tucked my head into chest. He knew that I loved when he did that because he can hear my breathing and I can hear his heartbeat.

"Please give me one more chance." He said bringing his index fingers to his lips. He looked at me and I can see him begging me with everything that he has to say yes and I really wanted to. But I knew better this time. He was filled with empty promises but when it came down to it he would never pick me first and never be there for me. And as much as I wanted to live in the Imaginary land that I lived in when it's just me and him, I know I can't anymore.

"No I can't!" I said as I started crying. I cried into his chest knowing that it was the last time I was going to be this close. As soon as I left this room it was going to be the last time that I ever came back here.

He kissed me on the forehead, give me and extra tight squeeze and let me go. As I grabbed my stuff and walked out of the room, I look back at him and our eyes connect. I guess that he also knew that this was the last time. I walked to the door, opened it and walked out into the world. This time as a new person.

6 weeks later:
"You can't tell me that you're still in bed!" Nicholas said as she opened the door to check on me. She saw me still in bed resting and came and joined me. She was the rock for me after I broke up with Damien the same way that she was always a rock for me.

"I am. I still feel bad." I said while grabbing a tissue and putting my snot into it. I always hated feeling sick.

"He isn't worth it! You can find a much better guy!" Nicholas said as she dodged my used up tissue and hugged  me.

"I know! But it isn't that! I have been feeling sick all month! I am always tired, I have heart pain, I feel bloated, I'm losing weight and I'm coughing!" I said explaining to Nicholas all the new symptoms I have. It was weird after breaking up with Damien I was okay for a while but than I started getting sick and now I have a hard time getting out of bed. "It's probably just a cold!"

"Yea probably!" She said hugging me again.

"Wait what is this?" She asked as she touched hard on a part of my back. "Does it hurt?"

"Yes it's probably a pimple." I said waving it off.

"Let me check!" Nicholas said as she lowered my shirt to check the pimple.

"It doesn't look like a pimple. I think something is wrong we need to get to the hospital!" She said in a hurry.

"Can we please go after this movie?" I say hoping that we just spend one more moment pretending that everything is fine.

"Okay...." Nicholas says understanding me in my time of need. She pulled the covers on top of us and embraced me. This was the last time everything was normal.