Life isn't fair

How could you?!

{Jiang Cheng's POV}

" Lan Xichen, Ever since your father died I have treated you like my own son, I have never asked in return for anything but today, I am on my last breaths, I don't know how much longer I have left so I beg you to marry Yao. You are going to need a new leader for the clans and Jiang Cheng isn't capable of doing so." Meng Shi stated

[Silence]

" I am sorry but- I will do it!" I choked out loud when Lan Xichen accepted his request.

"I will do it, I will marry him. It's time that I repay you for your kindness." Lan Xichen

I looked at him with questioning eyes, practically begging him to look at me. I was furious, I wanted to strangle him right there and then. Betrayal was the only emotion I felt, how could he marry someone else when I am still alive! I understand that it's Meng Shi's last wish but why not someone else! Ever since Lan Xichen and I got married all the other clan leaders, specifically Meng Shi keep talking about how I can't provide the two clans with a new leader.

I felt my eyes fill with tears, excusing myself before I burst into tears, I ran to my room before slamming the door. I punched the closest vase near me, making it shatter instantly. I winced in pain as the glass dug deeper into my skin. Overwhelmed from the pain I broke out crying, tears running down my red cheeks. Due to the blood loss and the loss of water I passed out on the wooden floor with the glass pieces.

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I woke up with swollen eyes, flushed cheeks and a painful headache. I looked around as I was still laying in a pile of glass, meaning Lan Xichen hadn't bothered to come look for me. I shook my head as i chuckled, how stupied was I, me out of anyone in this world having a happy life. Impossible. I knew as a clan leader I couldn't show my pain to my people. I had to stay strong.

I winced in pain as I got up,holding the bed for support since my wobbly legs were no use at this point. Waddling over to get something to clean the glass with before I fixed my figure and left for dinner. On my way there I could still hear Meng Shi talking to Lan Xichen about the whole marriage thing. Tears again threatening to fall, I quickly shoved open the dinner room doors to be greeted with Lan zhan and Wei-ing. They both were taking no-stop before shifting their attention to me.

"Jiang Cheng! Come on, don't just stand there, come sit." Wei-ing said as he grabbed my arm and took me to a seat further down than usual. Confused at his sudden action, I gave him a questioning look.

"Meng Yao and Yao are going to stay here for the night and Meng Yao wants Yao and Lan Xichen to become closer together. That's why he asked if he could move you." Wei-ing answered

I signed before taking my seat. Thoughts filled my head, how Yao will take Lan Xichen away from me, how Lan Xichen will touch someone that's not me. I snapped out of my thoughts as the door opened revealing Meng Shi, Lan Xichen and Yao. They all took their seats before the food arrived.

" How was your day, here at lotus pieper Yao?" I asked before taking another bite from the chicken. My question went ignored, not only that but Yao started talking to Wei-ing instead. Honestly it hurt, I could hear Meng Shi chuckling. I looked down towards my plate and realized that I had lost my appetite. So I simply bowed to everyone before I left my room.