Life isn't fair

The War

lan Xichen's POV

It's 3: 45 am, the sun is going to rise anytime now. It's been a week since Jiang Cheng and I got into our fight. Honestly, I don't know why I got mad at him.

I had gone to visit the Lanling Jin Clan. ( Yao's Clan) Recently, Yao's father had made Su She ( Yao's cousin) the clan leader instead of his older son. That started to cause riots among villagers. Other clan leaders had come to me asking for the reason. So that day, I went there to address this concern and to meet Jiang Cheng's older sister. She had married Jin Zixuan a year ago and was expecting a baby soon.

Instead of answers, I was insulted. Su She disrespected my clan and my family in front of everyone. Eventually, he said that he wanted Jiang Cheng's hand in marriage. First, I thought it was a joke. But, when he started discussing wedding plans and things he was going to do to him. I was furious! I tried to keep calm through the whole situation. But when I left, I had bloody hands, and Su She had a broken nose.

I had just arrived back, and Jiang Cheng pilled me with questions.

" where were you? What were you doing."

My anger has gotten the best of me because I ended up yelling at him.

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It was 4 am now. Yao was still sound asleep. Every time I try to get up, he seems to wake up. It's not like it's my first time. I am not sure how many times I have tried to leave. But at this point, there is no use. I just wanted to talk to Jiang Cheng.

I know I am treating Jiang cheng wrong. He deserves the world. Not some guy that can't control his family. I just wanted to be with him, us having a happy life. We did have a happy life. But other clan leaders didn't like us living in peace. So they started talking about how we will produce a new hire for our clans.

Don't get me wrong. I am not playing with Yao. I don't feel any love between us. At first, it was alright. I thought maybe this would work. But then Yao started behaving weird. He was more greedy. I have multiple times caught him staring at Jiang Cheng with hate.

I wish things hadn't changed. I want to go back in time, where it was just Jiang Cheng and me.

Now it feels like hell. Jiang Cheng and I don't talk anymore. We were so close. We were so good together. But now we Barely walk and when we do we get into fights after. We weren't like this before!

All of this happened after I married Yao. Only if I had listened to Jiang Cheng, this wouldn't have happened.

Being with Yao feels like a punishment. I want to tell him that this isn't working out.  But each time I do, he changes the topic.

I groaned as the pain got worse. My whole body hurts. My headaches, my hands feel heavy, my chest is full of guilt. I couldn't move my body it was powerless. But I still felt anxious. I felt a weird sensation I felt in my lower abdomen. It was almost like my six senses telling me something was wrong. Not only just now, but something was coming our way. Something big. I never liked this feeling. I remember the last time I got this. It was when Lan Zhan and my parents died. Maybe I should go outside to see if something is wrong. You know to be sure. Even meet Jiang Cheng on the way.

I slowly lifted the sheets off me, trying to make the least amount of movement. Hoping Yao doesn't wake up. I slipped into a more formal Hanfu, fixing my hair and walking towards the door.

'Lan Xichen, where are you going?"

shit

" uh, I was going to get some water, don't worry. I will be back in a second." Please work, please work. I kept chanting in my head. I need to leave.