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Winter's Kiss ~ Chapter 12-Innocence (full)

Waking up I see that everything is ok

The first time in my life and now it's so great

Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed

I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant

I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect

Please don't go away

I need you now

And I'll hold on to it

Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear

The first time in my life and now it's so clear

Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here

It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

Innocence ~ Avril Lavigne

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Bella Swan September 9th 2007

The completion of our first year at university came and went with shocking speed, and before I knew it, we were all heading back to Forks for six weeks. During those weeks, Emmett and Rose were to get married (not in a church, to Alice's disgust!), and I had to watch the first of many marriages I would witness in the coming years.

Their wedding had been a simple affair amongst close friends and family only. Rose had, of course, looked stunning in a beautiful white wedding gown that hugged her curved figure, and Emmett looked surprisingly handsome in a tux - I was shocked that Rose had managed to get him to wear one. Obviously, though, the highlight of that wedding was seeing Edward in all his formal-wear-glory.

Unfortunately, with the wedding, catching up with friends, shopping trips, cinema visits, girl trips, and God knows what else, my Edward time had been severely limited. We'd struggled to find much time alone at all, and had shared little more than a quick, short hot kiss here and there since the end of July. It was maddening. Charlie wasn't helping matters, suddenly deciding to pop up everywhere - probably to make sure that Edward wasn't running his hands all over me. Charlie had suddenly become a cop-style 'father'. He had terrible timing.

The summer had come to an abrupt end, and all too soon I turned the page in my calendar to realise that we were all heading back to begin our sophomore year - and still, in an entire year, the only time I'd heard from Renee was that strange, minute-long phone call. I didn't want to think about what that meant.

Hence why the plane journey back to university was so torturous. Edward and I, naturally, sat side-by-side on the plane, sneaking each other glances as we both pretended to read books. After Caius' stunt last time, I wasn't too keen on plane PDA. Besides, I'd made the Cullens go (shock horror) economy, so there were far too many people for public snogging anyway.

That didn't mean that I didn't shift in my seat every thirty seconds just from feeling the heat from Edward's body rolling towards me, and from catching his gorgeous green eyes every few minutes. God, I wanted to kiss him. Properly kiss him. Make-out. Act like teenagers. Whatever. It had been far too long since we'd done more than a one-minute-snog-against-the-door, and we were both, clearly, feeling the consequences.

It was also on that plane journey, staring at the same page in my book for twenty minutes, that I had an epiphany.

Edward grabbed my hand as we walked onto the bus with our bags, and throughout the trip I could feel the energy cracking between us - particularly when Edward decided it would be a nice idea to kiss each of my fingers in turn with his oh-so-delectable lips, leaving me incredibly hot and bothered. Damn him.