Healing
There was a moment in my life where I'm afraid to change. I woke up everyday with hope and the hope end up breaking up my heart. I had a redundant life for almost 3 years and I went through the same shit everyday. My best friend knew how I suffer, they tried to help but what's the point of helping when I don't want to get the shit out of myself? I complained about hurting. I even cried and lose hope about things. why? why am I that dumb to stay when I don't get the same energy back? . And then I realised that the core is on me, and I asked myself, why am I in this situation? Why do I choose to live this way? Why am I afraid to leave? So, I took a step back, finding the question and answer, learning about myself, learning about what I really want in my life. When I get the answer, I knew I gotta move on and have a new life. I gotta leave whatever harms me. Therefore, I decided to leave, not because I don't love, it is because i love me more . Yes. I did push a lot of people throughout this process but I became a better version of me. I won't say that I have a great life now but it is better than before. All I can say right now is I'm not having a regret for leaving. So do not be afraid to change for good, if you choose to live like that forever, then be ready to have a long ass boring life like mine. It is never too late to change your life.
