Adopted by swayla (book 2) 🥀✨

✌︎︎Memories✌︎︎

I see Nate and he had brought Sybolle but I didn't care
J: hey guys
N: hey why did you ask us to come
J: I've gotten over the fact your together I don't care it's just I needed ppl that know the real me to talk to Ive become this soft emotional bitch and I've not drank in ages I need you guys to show me the real me
S: I've missed you
She runs up and hugs me and I hug back
N: lets get this party started
S: can we start at our old hangout
J: yes please I need to get shit faced
S: yessss
We drive to the old hangout and smoke and drink and talk about old times
J: holy shit remember the time when we dared you to run bout the street shit faced in your under wear and the police ended up chasing us and bringing us back to the orphanage
We all laugh histerically and end up crying cause we were laughing so hard we ended up passing out
I woke up still shit faced and high and walked back to the hype house and said but to nick and sybolle I walk in the door
J: wHooP wHooP wHaTs uP bItCheS
G: WHERE WERE YOU IVE BEEN WORRIED
J: jUsT aS wOrRieD aS thE pAsT sIx mOntHs
Everyone's as just staring disappointed
J: wHatS uP wItH yAlL iF yOu cOulDnT tElL iV nEeDed thIs
B: who did you get drunk with
J: nAtE anD sYboLlE
Ja: the ones from the orphanage that cheated on you
J: wElL yE bC tHeY aRenT sPoiLt bItcHeS liKe yAlL oNcE aN oRphAne aLwaYs aN oRPhAnE I wIsH I nEvEr meT yAlL mY lIfE wOuLdnT bE sUch a sHiT sHoW
B: do you really mean that
N: no SHES drunk
J: iM sObeR eNouGh tO kNoW hOw aM feElInG I MiSs mY oLd lIfE wHeN I CouLd JuST dRiNk aNd geT hIgh wHeN I wAntEd tO
Everyone just stares at you hurt
J: sTop aCtiNg lIke yOu cArE
G: WE ARENT FUCKING ACTING
J: STOP SHOUTING AT ME
G: NO YOU WILL DO AS YOU TOLD
J: SEE THIS IS WHAT I MEAN MY LIFE WAS NEVER LIKE THIS ALL THE ABUSE I GOT WASNT AS PAINFUL AS THE HATE AND ALL OF THIS THAT IS HAPPENED NOW I WOULD RATHER GET DRAGGED DOWN THE STAIRS HIT AND STARVE THAN WALK IN TO THE HOUSE AND SEE SOMEONE YOU LOVE SITTING WITH A GIRL OR GET PEOPLE SAYING YOUR UGLY WHENEVER YOU POST OR NOT BEING ALLOWED TO DRINK LIKE MY LIFE IS HELL NOW BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I SHOULD JUST END IT ALL
I run out the house and go back to swayla and go into your old bathroom where you hid the pills people were banging on the door but you didn't care so you swallowed the pill and everything went black