In The Spectrum [ N.C. ] ON HOLD

Chapter 13 - I'm not stupid

I inhale and exhale while i keep driving. I'm going to liv's house but today is not just any day, I'm meeting her mom, and i'm usually pretty chill about these things, but with Liv it is just different, I wish i could think Liv is more independent, but she isn't and her mom seems very protective of her, so if she doesn't like me, she could take liv away from me, and i would never want that to happen.

I feel Liv's hand on my knee, and i look to the passenger seat to look her bright blue eyes looking into mine with a little frown, ugh, it's like she could read my mind now, she used to be so oblivious of my feelings and now she even notices when i'm hungry, angry , sleepy...

"Noah, what's wrong?" she asks frowning and squeezing my knee, i shake my head sighing, i really don't want to rant about this with her, although she doesn't seem nervous at all.

"it's nothing, Liv, i'm fine" i lie holding onto the steering wheel tightly and looking ahead to the street.

"Don't lie to me" she says and i hear te anger and upsetting in her voice, I groan lightly and roll my eyes

"I'm nervous, that's all" I confess and she moves her hand from my knee to my cheek, her finger stroking the rough recently shaved skin, i like to have it a little longer, but i didn't want her mom to think i was messy or anything like that.

"Why?" she inquires again, I sigh and to not snap at her, it's not her fault that i'm so nervous, but i wish she wouldn't ask so many things right now

"Liv, i just don't want to talk about it, okay?" i take another deep breath as i look again to the street in front of us.

"But, i want to know, why are you so upset, do you not want to meet my mom?" she asks again and i sigh one more time, trying to not lose it, but it is quite hard, it all has been great between us, but i still feel like i can't tell her when something is wrong, i don't think she'll understand me, i don't know how to talk about some things with her.

"Olivia, i just said i don't want to talk about it, don't push it" I tell her again and

"fine" she says annoyed and i swear i can feel her rolling her eyes "I hate it when you're like this" she mutters and then looks out of the window, I pull over and when the car is finally stopped, i turn to look at her

"Like what Liv, annoyed?" I say a little on edge, she doesn't know when to stop. i've been failing my lasts tests and my scholarship is in danger. If i lose it, i would have to leave this university because i could never afford it. and i know it is because i've been ditching and disregarding my classes to be with liv or to help her with her own assignments, but she doesn't need to know any of this. I'll just figure it out on my own

"Angry for no reason, i was just trying to help you but you don't talk to me" She yells with another frown and her cheeks are getting pinker, she's angry i can tell.

"You wouldn't get it, liv, just stop asking me" I tell her trying to get her to drop it, but she's stubborn, i know that, i know she is just caring about me, but i don't want to tell her about my classes, that would make her feel guilty and i don't want that.