Iginala ko ang aking paningin sa kabuuhan ng pasilyo. I sighed. It's been a while since I came here. The interior looks spacious than it was before. Marami na rin ang nagpupunta dito. Unlike dati na iilan lamang ang mga pasyente. Ang dami nang nagbago at ito yung pagbabagong ayokong makita pa.
It brings back memories. The happy and lonely one I've had. In the other hand, I felt pain cause I suffered a lot in this and I used to come here with the man I love but here I am sitting and reminiscing while waiting for the result. Akala ko di na'ko makakapunta pa dito pero akala ko lang pa'la yon. Expect the unexpected sabi nga nila. Funny it is?
Napagawi ang paningin ko sa magkasintahang magkahawak kamay. It seems like the guy is comforting his girl. Sana lahat ganyan. Yung nandiyan yung taong mahal mo to give you strength and to comfort you, lalo na sa panahong alam mo'ng 'di mo na kaya. Then I remember days ago when I saw my boyfriend cheating on me.
Masaya akong umikot habang nakahawak sa laylayan ng aking bestida. Today is a special day so I wore a white knee length sleeveless dress with a black ribbon in the middle of the neckline. I fixed my hair into bun and I wear a pair of wedge sandal with a touch of nude and black. I put some accesories and applied a light make up and I grabbed a black purse. I check myself once again in the mirror and I'm ready to go. I booked a grab and that was an epic one. I heave a sighed, dapat kanina pa ako nag book ng grab and now I'm going to wait for a minute. What the hell! I'm being forgetful for heaven sake!
Nakatanaw ako sa labas ng bintana ng sasakyan. Nakangiti at halos 'di mapakali. Iniisip ko pa'lang yung surprise na hinanda niya ay para na akong kinikiliti. I know him very well. Sa panahong magkasama kami, lagi niya ako'ng sinusupresa. Should I act like I did'nt know his plan? Para naman maging successful yung plano niya. I chuckled.
Matapos magbayad ay dumiretso na ako sa restaurant. Iginaya ako ng isang waiter sa nakareserbang lamesa para sa'min. I halt midway.
"Where is he?" I asked the waiter.
"He's in the backyard ma'am. He instruct me to escort you here" She respond politely.
Isang kiming ngiti ang isinagot ko rito. Minutes passed but still he's not here so I stood up and gather my things and went into the backyard.
Wow. I muttered. There's a lot of rose petals scattered in the red carpet. May LED lights ang nakapalibot sa backyard. Mayroon tila mga ugat na may bulaklak ang naglalambitin sa himpapawid. It's perfect.
Dahan dahan akong naglakad dito. My jaw literally dropped when I saw my boyfriend. Tears starting to form in my eyes. But no.. he's not alone. He's with my bestfriend. And they are kissing for fuck sake. Tuluyang bumuhos ang aking luha. I covered my mouth with my hand. Tuluyan ako'ng nanghina. Patakbo ako'ng lumisan sa lugar na yon. My knees got wobbled at napaupo ako sa malamig na semento. Napahagulgol ako. Mahal kita e pero bakit ganito? No, not my bestfriend. I thought it's a celebration, we've been in a relationship for fucking three years! But what happened? I kept on crying when I felt something. Blood. There's a blood coming out in my nose. I froze. No, not again.
Bumalik ako sa realidad nang makita ko siya. My brows furrowed. What is he doing here? Nilapitan ko siya. Martyr na kung martyr. You can't blame me. Mahal ko siya eh. Handa ako'ng kalimutan ang kataksilang ginawa niya, wag lang siya mawala sa'kin so I acted like nothing happens.
"Hey baby, why are you here?" I asked him sweetly. He glared at me.
"Are you dumb or what?" He said angrily. He clenched his jaw.
"W-what are you talking about?" I stuterred. No, please. Don't bring up that topic.
"We're over. Don't act like you forgot what I did that night! I fucking kissed your bestfriend! You should be mad at me. And because of what I did, we're over!" Nanigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko.
"N-no baby, I already forgave you and there's nothing to worry about. I know nagkamali ka lang. Hindi kailangang humantong sa ganito just because of a petty things" I sobbed.
"You called that 'petty'!? Niloko kita tapos ganito ka lng?! What the fuck Lucy! Masyado ka'ng mabait para sa'kin and I fucking hate it! Stop bugging me. We're fucking over!" He shouted at me. Napaluhod ako. Nanginginig.
"W-what about the three years we've been together? Sasayangin na'lang ba na'tin yon nang dahil lang dun?! Think again! Let's fix this together!" Humahagulhol kong sambit. Hinawakan niya ako sa balikat at tinitigan.
"You can't fix it anymore! Imulat mo ang sarili mo sa katotohanang nakita mo!? Do you fucking understand that huh!"
"Y-you love me, right? You fucking love me! Minahal mo naman ako sa loob ng tatlong taon di'ba!? I asked desperately. Inilapit niya sa'akin ang kanyang mukha.
"Yes, I love you Lucy" He whispered huskily. My face brighten up from what I heard.
"I love -" He cut me off
"But I'm a great liar" He smirk and he left me dumbfounded.
This can't be. He's lying, right? Mahal niya ko, alam kong mahal niya ko. He promised that he will never leave me. I kept on convincing myself but Fuck, sino bang niloloko ko!? Pinapaasa ko lang ang sarili ko sa katotohang lumabas sa mismong bibig niya. It really hurts. Patuloy na dumaloy ang aking luha. Mahal kita e. No, hindi ko kakayanin. Nagmahal lang naman ako pero bakit ganito! Ang sakit sakit. I clutched my chest. I just kept on crying there, nakatulala at tila tinakasan ng ulirat.
A man in a white lab suit appeared.
"So you knew?" Pagod ako'ng tumigin sa kanya but instead of answering him, I remained quiet. Nang walang makuhang sagot sa'kin, inabot niya ang isang brown envelope.
"I suggest you to have a second opinion from the other." He said and left me dumbfounded.
I opened the envelope. I remained standing. Nalamukos ko ang hawak na papel. I'm already tired. No, not again. I don't want to experience the same pain and agony I felt years ago. Wag ngayon, lalo nang wala yung tao kinukuhanan ko ng lakas sa ganitong pagkakataon. Hindi ko kakayanin. Fuck this life!
