White To Black Back To Nothing

pride is me

He became a confusion to me. I stooped so low thinking I would feel better but i ended up becoming lost. It feels like darkness doesn't want me and light doesn't either. All i ever Wanted in my life was happiness those stories you read and wonder if paradise was real my name was happy light the candle that never extinct. Once you did not do me as twice, twice you ruined me why did i accept you. Made me blame my light may be he heard my prayers .may be  their was no devil ,devil was me. After all he came as light before devil. Twice you keep destroying me i had accepted my darkness but now you decided to bring back my light. Who do you think you are? Can i go back ?

Who do i run to , when i chose darkness i lost everything on the way. I feel like crying but tears wont come. Did i make everything fear me. I feel like asking devil forgiveness may be it wasn't his fault we all have our demons to deal with. If it was you would you forgive me?  My stars where did you go you used to always be there for me you always lighted my darkness and guided me. Where are you ? I need you now show up my sky turned black hear my cries forgive me .

Who am i to judge myself i didn't wish for this to happen ,yes i hurt you but you also turned my life upside down. I wasn't the one who started it ,you did. I was an angel before you took my wings away, i had my light. Please forgive me if i can't ask for forgiveness. I am pride. You come asking for forgiveness will your forgiveness bring back my wings will my it open the gates back but above all things will i be able to forgive you twice? will i move on?
Don't come to me asking for forgiveness become a miracle worker turn back time make us not meet each other. Make me forget you, make me an angel again. Don't come to me just asking for forgiveness. Yes you found your light so easily, why  should i follow you , when you brought me down to this path did you ever ask me if i wanted to come along, if i wanted to be this thing ,so dont expect me to come ask for forgiveness. May be its pride but i guess pride is me.