The mishap

Chapter 7

After we finished our breakfast he drove me to the audition. The car ride was long. Even longer than it would've been considering what just happened. I thought I couldn't have been anymore obvious but he really had no clue. At least this disaster wouldn't affect my audition. When I act almost nothing can make me come out if character.

-Time Skip (to after audition. Sry I don't know wht people do at auditions for movies)-

I won't know if I got the part till next week. I know tht I did good but some people are better and that's fine. If I don't get the part then I won't have to leave my mom or stay to see Thomas get married one day. Why wait to leave? My mom sends me mail everyday saying 'I miss you hurry home' or 'I love you'. Why not just end everybody's 'suffering'. I'm going to do it. Before you say it, no I am not going to go commit suicide. I'm just going to end my all time dream and go back home early. When Thomas finished driving me back home from the audition I ran to my hotel room packed all my stuff up and ran outside towards my secret hiding spot. I called my mom.

"Mom?"
"Yes, honey?"
"I need you to pick me up... now."
"Of course Cassandra. But what happened?!"
"Long story that I don't want to tell. Just hurry up... plz. I'm not in any kind of trouble. I just want to go home."
"Ok I'll be there tonight."

I know wht your thinking. Why run away from Thomas Sangster? Why leave him in the first place? I may be overreacting but I don't care. I can't even be near Thomas if he thinks I don't like him like that. I ran because I don't want to see his face when I tell him where I'm going. But it's better this way. He will understand. It's not like he cares anyways.

That night I ate dinner in silence. "What's the matter Cassandra? Your acting like you just came out of a bloody funeral," Thomas asked concerned. "Shut up! Don't you dare talk about funerals around me! Trust me! I know about loss! I KNOW ABOUT LOSS! I'm sorry. I-I don't know what got into me. I'm going to have a little walk. Bye," I said. Thats the first time I've ever snapped at Thomas. I walked outside without looking at back. I couldn't bare to see his face. I know this would be the last time I would ever see him. I ran up to him and give him a hug, crying slightly. "Wha-what happened," Dylan asked as he came into the kitchen. "Nothing Dylan. I'm going to miss you guys... so much," I said through tears. As I gave hugs to Ki and Will too. "I think I'm going to miss u most of all Kaya. You-you were the sister I never had. And I'm grateful to have met all of you," I said through tears. Honk!!! That's my mom. She's here. I'm leaving. This is the right thing. I sure hope it is. Like my dad used to say before... well before he died,' If you love something or someone set them free because if it was meant to be... it will come back to you.' The last time m dad said that things were looking pretty bleak. It was 9:00 am December 24th. He was going out to pick something up for me at the store for Christmas. A lot of people were and he was on the phone... with me. All I heard was a scream. We weren't really sure if it was the cancer that killed him or the car accident. We settled on cancer. He told me that saying right before the ear piercing scream that signified his last dying breath. I believed it to still be true. Even though it was impossible. But now I see what he meant. He let us go when he died. And we are meant to be a family. I will see him in heaven. But it's not right to kill yourself or harm yourself. I understand that now. Especially after he made it clear. I promised him I wouldn't cut anymore and I won't break that promise. Bye now I'm bursting with tears and I'm sure I look like a ghost and yet I still turn back around for a last wave goodbye. When I turn around they all have confused expressions. They still don't get it. "I'm leaving. And I'm not coming back." Before they could say anything else I ran outside and hoped in the car.

-Authors Note-
This is the end. Unless...