That One Summer

Last.

3 years had passed.

yet I'm still into you.

It's kinda hard to forget when you were the only person who made me feel this way. My friends would probably laugh at me because I can't just let go of these memories. But you know what, it's not only because of that drawing, but the short yet memorable moments that we shared with each other that only myself can experience and feel it.

Your personality. Your jokes. Your intelligence. Your talents. Your goals. Your principles. These made me fall for you.

3 years. I let go of the opportunity to know you more. I blame myself for that. Should i just accept the fact that you can never be mine and I can never be yours? Fate hate us, maybe.

I started to think, was there a lifetime waiting for us, in a world where I was yours? was it the wrong time? the loss of communication? I don't know. But what if we tried, giving in a little more? That, I can't answer that.

Yeah, we may still communicate-- occasionally. Exchanging "Merry Christmas!",  "Happy Birthday!", "Happy New Year!", "Congratulations!" and after that, nothing. We are awkward. We are not the persons from 3 years ago.

If only I could turn back the time, I will say yes to your offer-- to have a date with you. If only I could say what I feel about you, I will. If I wasn't just embarrassed and took the risk.... but I'm a coward, secrets turned to regrets, the buried feelings grow.

Right now, I am beyond proud and amazed of how far you've become. Imagine, passed all the top and prestigious schools here in our country plus a full scholarship? Damn! Who are you? HAHAHAHAHA
What course will you take tho? Accountancy, Business or Film? but whatever course you choose, as long as it makes you comfortable and happy, I'll be supporting you from behind.

Also, I'm happy that you've found the girl of your dreams. I hope everything will go smoothly in your relationship.  I'll be rooting for the both of you. I hope you guys will last long. It sucks because it wasn't me but what can I do? I wished that time had better timing for you and me, but we can't changed it anymore.

So how about me? Well, don't worry about me. I may still like you, but I'm pretty sure that I will get over you, soon. I know it's not easy, but it will be worth it and I can't wait for the time where I can finally say, "I moved on"--- even there is nothing between us.

Friends? Friends.

Again, Thank you for the memories. This is the last. Goodbye.

- Betty.

Excuse my grammar, English is not my first language and I wrote this through feelings so please bear with it. :)