Honestly...

Still That Moring

Jace's POV

It was the perfect opportunity, and I wasted it. I cant help but be mad with myself. I know I have to tell her sooner or later, and ugh I sound like a chick thats obsessed with confessing to a guy. When I think about it though, there isnt much difference, except for the fact that I am a guy. I mean I really like Tierney but Im not sure how she feels about me, and I dont really want to put our friendship at stake. Ok Im done. While walking out the backdoor I see Spencer leaned up against the back of Tierney's house. Looks like hes thinkin' hard about something. He doesnt even notice me come outside. "Yo Spence, you ok?" I snap him out of his trance and he gets off the house.

"Huh. Oh yea Im good," he answers scratching the back of his neck. "Hey, can I ask you something?"

"Sure." I say, as we make our way around the house to my car.

"What do you think of Tierney? " I stop walking and he turns to look at me.

"In what way am I supposed to think about her? " Does he suspect that I like her?

"I dont know, its just I think I like her, as in more than friends, but I feel like she only looks at me as a big brother kind of guy."

So Spence likes Tierney. This is just great. Should I be happy about this? My best mate has just found a girl he likes, and thats good, but it sucks that I happen to like her too. This is too cliche for me. The three best friends, the guys of the group end up falling for the girl. Lets be honest these things never work out the way you want them to, so why let it happen in the first place, right?

"So you like her? " I ask.

"Thats the thing. Im not for certain if I do or not. I just know I care for her more than on a friend level."

"I see. "I start walking again, giving off a big sigh, not knowing what else to say. It wouldve been awkward to stay there, because Spence just got me thinking. I mean obviously Im not going to be the only one who cares for Tierney, and sure I knew that could happen and I was prepared for it, but not if the guy was Spencer. He practically has all the girls crawling over him now, but me, Ive been labled as the mysterious guy that all the girls are curious about but none really go after. This just made things like 10 times harder. Should I go for the girl I may be in love with or should I give Spencer a chance at happiness, even if it means loosing my own? Oh yeah because thats the easiest question on the planet.

"'I see? '" Spence says catching up to me. "Thats all youre going to say? "

"What else am I supposed to say? "

"I dont know, give me some advice?"

"Dude, we're dudes. We dont give each other dating advice, thats a girl thing. " he just shakes his head and sighs. Dont get me wrong its not that I didnt want to give him advice, I just didnt want to give him advice about Tierney. So I guess I really didnt want to give him advice at all. Yeah I know 'oh Jace youre so immature', yea whatever. If im gonna even have a chance with Tierney I dont want to be giving pointers to the fighting team. In this case, Spencer.

We finally round off the side of the house and walk the couple of feet to my car. I hop in the driver's seat and Spence in the pasenger's,and we're off. It isnt a long drive back to my place just about 4 streets from Tierney's, and Spence lives right across the steeet from me, so its really convenient for us all to hangout whenever. I get out first and send him my goodbyes and see you later, and we go our seperate ways. We'd be meeting up at 5, to go back to Tierney's,to get her, so I didnt have to say much. The party didnt start til 6 so we were just gonna hang a bit before it started.

Now lets see its 1 now, so I have time to take a shower, and chill by myself, before we meet

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Ok so we got bored and decided to meet up a little earlier than planned, good thing I got my stuff ready when I got home. Guess we'd just show up in our party clothes and head out when 6 came around.

"Where the hell is Spencer!?"

Me and Tierney were outside my car waiting for Spencer to come over. He was taking forever and if was now 5:30, so we would probably just hit up a drive-thru and head to the party. It would be about a 20 minute drive so we'd be "fashionably late".

I checked my phone.

Just 20 more mins.

-Spence

Seriously. This is ridiculous. It got quiet in the car until Tierney broke the silence.

"So what did you want to talk about earlier? You kinda rushed out before going into it."

I knew what she was talking about, but that doesn't mean that I wanted to talk about it now.

"Uh, about that, any chance you could probably forget about that?"

"No, not really." she surprised me when she put her hand over mine, and intertwined our fingers. "You know you can tell me anything right?" I didnt know what was happening, but I liked it. I put on a small smile and stroked the back of her hand, with my thumb and she tightened her grip a bit."Jace?"

"Hmm?" I couldnt bring myself to say real words, I didnt want to ruin the moment. Next thing I know thoughts of Spencer were coming to my mind.

I think I like her.

What the fuck does he mean he "thinks" he likes Tierney, I knew for a goddawm fact that I liked her, and I have for about 2 years now. Now I know what your thinking, '2 years Jace? Why havent you made a move?', and truth is I really dont know. Guess you could say I was scared of rejection, but it felt more like I was ok with just being by her side as a good friend, at the time anyway. Its different now though, I want more. I want her.

"JACE!?" I look up from our hands.

"Yea?"

"Ive been calling your name for about 3 minutes now, what the hell were you thinking about?" Oh Tierney Tierney Tierney, if only you knew. I couldnt help but smile. "Ooooo is it a girl maybe?" she laughs and its like she's mocking me.

"Yes actually it is, " I say getting defensive. Her laughing died in an instant.

"Seriously?" guess she wasnt expecting a yes to that. "Well who's the lucky girl?"

"Pft... lucky" I couldnt help but laugh at the fact that she thought any girl would be happy to be with me. Then I thought to myself, would Tierney feel lucky if we were together? She smacked my arm and looked at me seriously.

"Why do you do that?"

"Do what?" I ask rubbing my now sore arm. I swear she hits like a man.

"Youre always belittling yourself Jace. I mean it, any girl would be lucky to be with you, youre a really great guy." She smiled at me and untwined our fingers, going back to leaning against the door and looking out the window. I couldnt believe what came out of my mouth next.

"Would you... be lucky to be with me?"

"Jace...I " Her words were cut short by Spencer jumping in the backseat, and I couldnt be more grateful for his timing. I didnt want to hear her answer, at least not now. If I were going to be rejected, then I needed time to ready myself.

"Sorry guys, I kinda went to sleep and well over slept so... " He trailed off as he looked between the two of us "Uh, everything good? You guys are oddly quiet. "

"Everything is just great my friend." Tierney didnt answer. She must be thinking about what Id said. Was that a good thing? What if she was thinking of a way to let me down easily? Was I really that bad? I really need to stop talking bad about myself. God what have I done?!