CONSEQUENCES

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Hindi ko alam kung gano nako katagal na tulog. Pero sigurado akong masakit ang buo kong katawan. Damn! What happened?

Hirap kong minulat ang aking mga mata. At nang bahagya ko itong minulat ay agad ding napapikit dahil sa liwanag na sumalubong sakin.

"Arrgh" mahina kong daing pero kahit ganon ay pinilit ko paring mag mulat ng mata.

"Where am I?" tanong ko sa aking sarili ng makita ko ang aking kinalalagyan.

Hindi ko naman matandaan na nagpunta ako dito ah plus, I don't know this place. Hindi naman siguro ako na kidnap. But Seriously? What the heck happened? Why am I feeling dizzy and i feel my body weak.

I looked around me for the 2nd time. Even if i try harder to remember, I really can't remember this room. This is not my room I'm sure. From here, I can see the window not too far from me, and even if it's dark, I can still see some paintings. I don't have paintings in my room. Unless mom invaded and posted these, though I doubt.

I want to stand but my whole body hurts and my eyes are starting to close again. Why am I feeling tired? It's like I joined 'The amazing race world' Yeah really. But before I could answer my own question, I suddenly blacked out.

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Even if It's hard, I still managed to open my eyes as soon as i woke up for the second time and stared at the window for seconds. The sun has rised. Now it's confirmed. I really am not in my room. This room is filled with abstract paintings and books. Interior color is brown white and black. And a guy? What the fuck? A guy on the couch? Laying? 

Akala ko panaginip lang ang lahat ng nangyari. Damn! This is reality!

Daniel was laying on a couch not too far from the bed I am lying. The reason why I didn't notice him the first time I woke up, maybe is because it's too dark too see. But now, I can clearly see him from here. Nakahiga siya paharap sa kisame habang ang mga kamay niya ay naka yakap sa isang unan. Kahit tulog ay di ko parin maiwasang hindi siya purihin dahil sa taglay niyang kagwapuhan. Nahalata ko din mula dito ang curly niyang eyelashes. Matangos na ilong, fine brows and those pinkish kissable lips.....

Kanina, nung una akong nagising, hindi ko agad natandan ang nangyari. Pero nang magising uli ako ngayon, tanda ko na. 

Masakit. Oo masakit na maalala ang mga nangyari. Kung sana ma amnesia nalang ako. It hurts me so bad. It hurts me big time. It hurts me damn so great. Hindi ko kasi talaga inakala na ganun ang magyayari. Una ko pangang naisip 'Aha! Andito na si Daniel! Sa wakas I'm saved!' kesa sa tunay na nangyari. To me, he was a friend. A dear friend. He always makes me smile by his normal actions. Yung simple niyang pang iinsulto at simple niyang pag susungit sakin. Siguro kung hindi ako galit, maiisip kong may gusto na ako sa kanya. Pero alam ko namang imposible yung iniisip kong mangyari. Maybe he was full? Sawa na ba siya sa attitude ko? Alam ko namang may pag ka bitch ako, pero... ewan na nga.

This feeling is even harder than my first heartbreak. Why? Because the day my heart broke, Daniel was there comforting me. But now? Who will comfort me if the person I was expecting to, was the one who hurt me so bad. Di ko tuloy alam ang ita trato ko sakanya pag bigla niya nalang akong kausapin- - which is really possible because we are in a same house and I'm guessing that this is the beach house he mentioned before. Am I gonna give him a cold treatment? Am I gonna scowl at him? Or am I gonna let the incident slip and just act as if nothing happened? If i will chose the third one, then I think I'm out of my mind. Nababaliw na ata ako. Ako pa ata ang na ko konsensya. Naman yan oh! Sana hindi siya magsorry! Mabilis lang akong magpatawad eh!

Tinalikuran ko siya."Ouch!" mahina kong daing nang madaganan ko ang aking braso na may bandage na.

'Did you do this?' I was mentally asking him. Well, ofcourse sino pa ba? My conscience responded. Now I'm sure I really am out of my mind.