Shehnaaz And Siddharth.

chapter-13

He was feeling the sukoon of his life while she was hugging him being all shy and embarrased . he was smiling like a fool crushing her more into his embrace.

Sana: dekha mene bola tha na tu bhi apni feelings accept karlega bahut jaldi. 

(Ho gyaa siyapaa...)

As soon as he heard her words he was brought back into the harsh reality .the reality where he cannot get hurt again. The reality where he is adamant to not give into his feelings.  The reality where he decided he will let her go and keep her only as friends.

He immediately backed off. Stunning sana at his abrupt reaction to her words. She looked at him and her heart sank. She knew where this is gonna go.

She kept looking at him for a while without saying anything. But he didn't move his head was hung low and he was staring at ground thinking something.

She sighed, she knew she will have to pacify him and make him understand.  

She cupped his face and made him look at her.

Guilt. She saw guilt in his eyes. She was taken aback but she knew what he felt and why he felt it. Had this happed after his confession of his feeling he wouldn't have felt guilt. He was guilty because he feared he had no right to do that but what does he know she was ready to give him all the rights he want.

Sana: sidhhaarthhh.. Kya hua?

Sid: (turned away from her) kuch nahi.

She went in front of him and again took his face in her palms. And her next action shocked him even more.

She grabbed his neck and bit him at the exact spot he did to her. Sensations ran theough his body by her act but now he was struck with reality so he pulled her back.

Sid: shehnaaz kyaa kar rahi hai?

Sana: kyaa? Mene kyaa kia? Mene toh sirf hisab barabar kiyaa..

Tujhe is baat ka bura lagraha hai na ki tune bina mujhse puche bina kisi rishte ke ye kia. Tohh mene bhi kar diaa.. Ho gyaa hisab barabar ab tuje guilty feel karne ki jarurat nahi hai.

And with that she smiled.

He was stinned how did she understand him without him uttering a single word.?He was relieved that she wasnt offended but he still was feeling guilty.

Sid: nahi shehnaaz.. I shouldn't have done that.  Pata nahi what came over me.. Wo usne tujhe chuaa and... Aaahhh.. What the hell is wrong with me.. I am really so...

She cut him mid- sentence.

Sana: ahan.. Sorry mat bolna..

She made him sid and knelt down in front of him. She grabbed his face and made him look at her.

Sana: dekh sidhharth. Pehli baat toh ye jo tu ye feel karra hai usse jealousy kehte hain and ye sabke liee feel nahi hoti bas unke lie hoti hain jo tumhare karreb hote hain and jinse tum pyaar karte ho.

He was about to say something when...

Sana: han han tu yahi bolegaa tujhe pyar karna nahi aata tu pyaar nahi kartaa.. Thik hai... Maan liyaa.kush? But sayd tu mujhe apna manta hai haina? Merse ek dost ki tarah toh pyaar karta hai bol?

Sid's poor heart was so desperate for a reason for his behaviour that it was ready to take any explanation where he doesn't have to admit he loved her ganda wala(🤣) toh this friends wala love sat well with him.

Sid: hann.. I think so..

Sana: toh bass tu isilie mere lie possesive hua hogaa.  Haina. And ye joo huaa abhi ,ho saktaa hai ki friendship mein you started having a liking towards me at a very good level. ( kisko ye convo. Yaad hai.. I really hated it.) I am not saying love not at all..but just a liking.  Right?