i love you, do you love me?

ocho

" you love me and you know it"
" i'm here."

!!TW!!

I finally made it home. I was in my room waiting for him. Waiting for the response.

*Ding *

I heard my phone go off and i instantly picked it up thinking it was him
* New notification from Josh *
ugh.. here we go.

Josh
come to my house now.

I bit my lip. I wanted to say no. I had too. I sighed as i argued with myself. I wanted to believe that josh loved me. He had to..right ? Did i love him? Yes in a way..his way of love was different... I knew he had feelings for me, even though he was abusive. He still loved me. Pain is love right... come on y/n decide. I know i love kairi so much but i also love josh. Our memories that we shared. Our first kiss..his first hit. I need to stop myself. I need it to end.

Josh
you can't ignore me y/n
you can't run from me
i'll always be there.
waiting.

I read his messages carefully. Was it a threat? Or love. I just wish he could tell me..

Josh
i know you better than anyone
you love me and you know that
you will never leave me
don't make me do it again

I was scared. I still am. His words..his actions. I want to tell someone alvaro thinks he knows everything he just knows that josh talks a lot..

I went to my bathroom and washed my face with water. I looked in the mirror and saw all of Joshes marks. I tried to smile i really did. Do i really need josh? Or did he just make me believe that.

*Ding*

I checked my phone once more. A smile immediately grew on my face.

Kairi
im here.
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A.N: Highly requested. i hope you enjoyed this. yes this chapter was all about josh but the next will be all about kairi. i wanted this chapter to show how y/n sorta feels towards josh. if you are going through something similar please tell a trusted adult/ loved one never be scared to speak up <3 the next chapter will be up soon <3