love on the brain.

one

" OH THIS IS MORE THAN A CRUSH I JUST MIGHT BE IN LOVE. " - tyler the creator.

✧*｡ 01; SECRET ADMIRER ｡*✧
ー jade smith.

all jade had wanted since the age of twelve was love. Not stupid high school "oh let's hold hands awkwardly" kind of love, but real life heart aching love. She expected so much; she blamed it on social media. At the ripe age of sixteen she had never even had a boyfriend, never been kissed, and didn't even think that a boy had even been interested in her. And because she had been so unexposed and inexperienced up to her sophomore year, she wanted her firsts; first boyfriend, kiss, time, etc, to be perfect. She wanted to be able to look back thirty years from now and not regret her firsts.

But that was hard when all the boys in her school were complete and utter immature super rats. All except for one boy of course. Josh Woodbeck. Even saying his name made Jade's heart do flips. She adored him so much her heart was on the brink of being too filled and exploding. He was her ideal man. They liked all the same music artists like A$AP Rocky, Tyler The Creator, and Frank Ocean. He was educated about fashion, her favourite thing, and trends n' all that plus was very trendy. He was respectable, responsible, and educated. And not to mention hella fine !

His 6'2 figure, perfect body, gorgeous brown flowey hair, and deep but not too deep voice made Jade weak at the knees. He was everything she had ever wanted in a boy. Every single thing about him catered perfectly to her taste. Like as if being the hottest, most fine boy in her entire school wasn't enough; it seemed as if God had created and crafted him perfectly for her. Never had any of the boys she had been infatuated with been so flawless and ideal for her. It was almost like magic. There was only one problem.....

Josh had no idea she existed. And there was also the slight complication of him being a junior and having a gorgeous blonde girlfriend. Alas, as perfect as he was for Jade, there was no chance of them ever being together. And that made Jade's heart hurt more than anything. And seeing him with Bo Zachman, a stunning blonde with a rockin bod and great status, only added on to the crushing pain. Jade spent all her days and nights dreaming, thinking, and fantasizing about Josh. And he didn't even know how many times he crossed her mind. It was your classic situation; lame, loser girl falls for hot, popular boy who doesn't even know her name.

"Will you stop staring," her friend Myah said. Jade quickly looked away and took a bite from her apple. She couldn't help it, since her and her friend sat at the tall bar top tables, she always had the most perfect view of Josh at lunch. "God you're so creepy," she sighed. Jade just shrugged because she guessed Myah was right. She hated being so in love with him, especially since she didn't even really know him. But either way she continued to watch. He laughed at something his friend Jack had said and his eyes got all crinkly while his perfect white teeth showed. How dreamy.

"Ok you. One of his friends are going to see you and think you're psycho, so let's go throw our stuff away and go," Myah insisted as she stood up from the table. Jade sighed and figured she would follow along. They tossed their things in the trash and walked over to Myah's locker in the lower green pod. She put her things away and rummaged through her crap trying to find her pressed powder so she could touch up. "What are you doing this weekend, wanna go to this yoga thing with me," Myah asked Jade. "Can't, Kelsey and I already have plans," Jade shrugged.

Kelsey was Jade's best friend. She was so gorgeous and sweet, but too bad for Jade, Kelsey did online school. Kelsey was the only person in the world who could completely put up with her shit all the time. "Oh. Ok. Well, we still have the homecoming dance to go dress shopping for," her friend pointed out. Jade nodded as Myah shut her locker and they began to head down to hers which was a little ways down in the lower blue pod. She was surprised that Myah wasn't going with a boy to the dance.

One of Josh's friends Legend, yes his name was really legend, had asked her but she turned him down; so the two friends had decided to go together. Myah was gorgeous and had dozens of boys hitting her up on the daily. She was easily the prettiest sophomore in their whole grade. Jade herself was average looking. She wasn't necessarily ugly, but she was by no means mind blowing beautiful or anything. It was weird being friends with Myah because of how well known she was. I mean Myah was friends with all upperclassmen and had boys vying for her attention left and right. And Jade had a maximum of fifteen friends and zero boys interested in her.

She wished she could be like Myah. She was so confident and sure of herself and her worth; which just made people like her more. Jade had friends that were boys but she had never experienced having someone share feelings towards her back. It was embarrassing. While girls in her grade like Myah were going to parties and hooking up with boys, she was stuck staying home on the weekends with her parents fantasizing a life with a boy who didn't even know she existed. Jade just hoped her life wouldn't be this pathetic forever.

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(( yikes this was trash ! literally nothing at all happened in this chapter but it was just an intro. and fun fact: everything in this chap is true in my life except for the character Jade ! she's supposed to be based off of me lol !! but all the other characters so far are based off of real people i know. but as i mentioned in the blurb THIS WILL BE HIGHLY UNREALISTIC !!! so prepare for situations that would never ever actually happen in my real normal teenage life !! this fanfic is supposed to be my fantasy life u know. in the meantime pls vote and comment !! ))