Bully's Proposal

VI

"I am so full." I said.

"Love, you ate salad. At a fast food joint. Weren't you really hungry sometime ago?" Ashton asked.

"I don't want to eat right now." I denied.

"Tell me what wrong sweetheart?" He asked and his eyes instantly softened. His hand rubbed my back as a gesture to calm me down and I knew he could tell I was lying.

"I don't like fries and burgers and chips and all of this." I lied.

"Fuck. I'm sorry. I didn't think. You want me to drive you somewhere else?" He asked.

"No! It's okay. I don't feel like eating. Let's do something else?" I asked trying to change the topic.

"Your wish is my command. So what next?" He asked.

"Oh I have something perfectly humiliating in mind." I smiled.

"Sounds I like something I don't want to know."

"It's time for a little payback." I winked.
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"You absolutely can not upload this." Ashton warned.

"Oh come on, it's kinda cute." I smiled.

"Love, you can call me hot, sexy, mesmerizing or evil even but I'm not cute." Ashton said flicking my forehead.

"You're cute." I said flicking his arm.

"Just delete the video." Ashton said.

"Nope, it's going on instagram." I switched on my Instagram and was about to press finish on the upload when my phone was pulled out of my hands by the person sitting next to me in the car.

"That's hardly fair! Give it back to me." I whinned.

"No, not until I delete the video." Ashton said and before he could do anything else I reached out for the phone but he pulled his hand futher away casuing me to fall in his lap.

I looked upwards and his face was hovering mine. He had visibly stiffened and I couldn't move an inch because he was staring at me. I kept looking into his eyes until he leanded downward where his lips were inches away from mine.

"Are you okay?" He whispered in my ear.

"F--f--fine." I stuttered.

"Come on up." In the process my getting up I made a mistake of placing my hand on his thigh but then soon realised it was thigh.

"You might want to move that." He said uncomfortably.

"Move what?" I asked and he pointed to my hand that was on his erection.

"Shit." I cursed and quickly pulled away but not before banging my head at the steering wheel.

"I'm so sorry." I said.

"It's fine are you okay?" He asked and I nodded. He began deleting the video from my phone.

"And here I thought you wanted to atone for your sins and would do whatever I said." I huffed in annoyance.

"This is blackmail." Ashton sighed.

"You wanted this chance, if you don't want to adhere to your proposal then fine. I don't care."

"Fine." He said and handed me my phone.

"Thank you!" I said and kissed his cheek unintentionally. It was as quick as a reflex. I saw him get affeceted by it but he didn't say anything to make it akward.

"It's posted." I smiled.

What was the video? Well it was a video of Ashton going down on his knees in the restaurant parking and apologising for the times that he bullied me. It was very cute because I got to pull his cheeks and ruffle his hair and he pouted like a 5yr old. I don't think anyone has seen this side of Ashton. 

As soon as I uploaded the video, it went viral. I began getting follows requests from people in school that have never spoken to me in my whole life. Suddenly my phone crashed because of all the activity.

"My phone crashed because of your video!"

"What?"

"Yeah! Your video's likes and comments literally made my phone overload and crash." I laughed.

"Fuck." Ashton grumbled and I knew he got a little uncomfortable with the video.

Then Ashton's phone began ringing. The caller ID I couldn't see but Ashton picked up instantly.

"Are you serious?" Ashton asked.

"It's okay. I'll handle it." Ashton said and then hung up.

"What's the matter?" I asked refering to his talk on the phone.

"It's nothing. It's okay. What are we doing next?" Ashton asked.

"No, tell me."

"The video. It's---" He didn't complete his sentence just began moving his hands through his hair in frustration.

I took his phone from his hands and logged into my Insta account. I found the video and archived it. I then logged out and handed his phone back to him.

"There, you don't have to worry about it." I smiled.

"Why would you do that? I promised I would do anything and I mean it. Keep the video online it's okay."

"I know you mean it. But I'm not that person. I tried to be today but it doesn't work for me. I don't want to humiliate you."

"Why? I made your life hell. Why would you help me?" He asked.

"Because you're trying to change and that has to count for something." I replied.

"You're an angel, love. Don't let me taint you, ever." Ashton said holding my face in between his hands.

He leaned in a little and I knew he wanted to kiss me. I wanted to kiss him too. But I knew better. I could be nice to Ashton Brown but I couldn't forgive him so easily. The number of times he hurt me and the ways in which he hurt me will stay with me forever. So despite all my instincts, I pulled away from him and he let out a sigh.

"Can you drop me home? We can hangout later again." I said.

"Okay" He said and began driving.
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I spent Sunday trying to figure out what the fuck was going on with my life. Suddenly everything seemed crazy! My life was pathetic when Ashton bullied me, I hated going to school and I could never stand up for myself. But now, it's all different. He's being nice to me and things are better st school and I have a voice to put forth my opinions.

But then this makes me think, am I actually getting stronger? Or just dependant on Ashton? The only time I'm remotely confident is when Ashton is being nice to me. Right now, if Ashton was to bully me or hurt me again, I would drown in fear.

I just can't seem to figure out what I should do. Should continue this proposal with Ashton? Or should I just let it go? Should I forgive Ashton? I could try but then again what about all the years that he's made my life miserable?

After I finished making dinner, I cleaned up and went back to my room so sleep. That's when I recieved a text.