Kaneki in Assassination Classroom

Chapter 1: Unshackled Ghoul

-Kaneki's P. O. V-

For a split second, I lost control and went insane. Rize was no longer here when I accepted the fact that I was a ghoul. Her blood tainted the pure Lilly flowers surrounding her body as the intent to get more power ravaged through my mind. I was stuck in this birdcage of a world. Cruel to nothing but itself. Jason in his check board playhouse, torturing me endless for the pleasure of it. My cold self seemed to disappear with each Lilly transforming slowly into a red blood spider. Yet the centipede was still stuck somewhere eating my head from the inside, the memories surged and intoxicated my weak mind. If I never met Rize that night, never took her out on that date, never went to the cafe, or even slept in...Would everything have changed? Was it only fate that was cruel in this worthless world, constantly filling both sides will an eternal war?

I recalled the scene where I had to choose between the man and the women, who lives and who dies. It was a simple two choices handed out to me but I couldn't do anything to save them...The result was undecided as Jason was merciless. 

"Choose me...kill me and let them go.."

I ate her corpse with hunger while losing all my humanity. With tears streaming out of my eyes as I suddenly woke up, tied back in the chair, blind folded when Jason would relentlessly torture and rip off my toenails and fingernails. Then asking to count down from 1000 minus 7 while only to repeat the cycle again as they began healing. 

Where has everything gone wrong from?

It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!It hurts! It hurts! It hurts! It hur-

Jason grabbed the man's head, and I only stood powerless as he activated his kagune and stabbed through him. All my conscious faded in an instant, back to the White room, my head lied down. My mind was broken, I cursed at my pitiful state right now. 

"You don't try to change," A women's voice spoke gently as I couldn't do anything. Rize...

"You couldn't do anything.. " The scene shifted to the moment right before Hinami's mom died with a smile on her face as the investigator didn't even care. She was a kind women and never deserved this. She never ate from an alive human and always hoped that one day we can live in peace. No-no one deserved this but the ones who didn't care. It switched a second time as I watched the two couple get killed, and it was all my fault...

I screamed an inaudible sound that meant everything to me. The feeling of my own guilt overwhelmed all of my senses. My face fell towards the sky but Rize put her hand on my cheeks, "Your mother was the same. Your mother was unable to do that." The fluttering petals from the flowers brushed and created a heavenly illusion that I was myself. Some instantly turned to red spider lilies upon my realization.

"Are you saying you accept me?" Rize asked in a more serious tone I've never heard before. The exact moment following it, I pounced at her then the red spider lilies emerged rapidly. Her body was so fragile and seemed so delicious. I devoured her as she didn't do anything to stop me.

"To live is to devour others," the voice inside my head spoke. Sanity is insane. My hair turned white as I motionlessly said, "I am a ghoul." It was a bittersweet revaluation to accept Rize ghoul organs living inside me. I gave up on my pure college human self and felt myself lose and fall into an endless hell hole. I was the same as Jason. But I will never be Jason.

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I came back to real life where I met with Jason after the couple was killed. He muttered something incomprehensible as I didn't give a fuck about before turning to eat me. I broke the chains tying my legs down as the dust around us blocked Jason's view. Sneaking and jumping behind him, I used the chains around my hands to choke his neck. Releasing his Kagune in anger, my body naturally flipped back and spun itself to avoid his attacks. I tried to kick his face with my leg, but he grabbed mine in time and twisted it around. With no screaming or any show of pain, I used my other feet to kick him to the side as he crashed into the wall. My twisted foot spun itself back to its original position as it healed itself. The motion was simple and I almost laughed at myself for not realizing it before. This was getting quite boring.