iDon'tHateYou

iCrushOnTheNub

Sam's POV

Fredward Benson. He's all I could think about. Carly thought I was sick because I didn't eat meat in two days. I think there is something wrong with me. I called my twin sister, Melanie, and told her about my problem. I knew I shouldn't have done that the second I started talking.

I told her all I can think about is Freddie. I told her I haven't eaten my precious ham in days. I told her I think something's wrong with me. And now I have to go to a therapist.

***

Monday was my first day of therapy. I have to go on Mondays and Wednesdays. My therapist's name is Julie. She asked me to tell her about my life.

I responded, "I hate school. I love ham. I have two friends named Freddie and Carly. Well, Carly is my best friend. Freddie just hangs around with us all the time (We don't get along). I'm barely at home because I have a drunk, psychotic mom who gets a new boyfriend, like, every other week. Every Friday, Carly, Freddork, and I do a web show called iCarly. You might know it 'cause it's pretty popular. I like to go to Build-A-Bra, Groovie Smoothie, and I LOVE Inside-Out-Burger. My favorite book is Boogie Bear 3: The Return of Boogie Bear."

"Wow," Julie responded. "You have a lot of things happening in your life. Now tell me, that boy you were talking about, uh, Freddie. You said you hate him. What do you two do that proves you hate each other?"

"Well," I responded, trying to think about how much I hate the dork. "We argue a lot for random reasons. I hate his mom because she is super overprotective with him. But, it gives me more reasons to make fun of him. I also beat him up whenever he annoys me. Sometimes we talk simultaneously which ends in a pretty long slap battle."

"I watch your show, iCarly. Just recently, I remember you telling all your viewers that Freddie never had his first kiss. And just in your recent episode, you stood up for Freddie and told people to tease you about not having your first kiss. What happened after Carly paused the show?"

"Do you really need to know?" I asked.

"Yes, you can trust me with anything. Everything you say in here will be a secret," Julie responded.

"Okay... So, Carly said it was brave of me to lie in front of the whole world. I told her I didn't lie and I went to apologize to Fredweird. We talked for a while and decided to get over our first kiss with each other," I said. Whew, it was good to finally let that off my chest. "It was sorta... nice."

"Hmm," She paused. "Now do you know why you are here right now? If you do please tell me."

"I do know," I responded. "It's because all I can think about is Frednub."

"When did this start?" Julie asked.

"About... Right after we had our first kiss together," I answered.

"Huh," She said with a knowing expression on her face. "I know what is going on here. You like Freddie, but you're too afraid to admit it to anyone, including yourself. I think we've solved your problem, but you can come next week if you'd like."

I was shocked, "It's okay, I won't be coming next week." I quickly walked out of the room without saying goodbye.

***

All I could think about was what Julie told me.

You like Freddie...

I quickly shrugged it off before I entered Bushwell Plaza. I do not have a crush on Fredward Benson and that is a fact. I don't care what that therapist said. She is an idiot if she really believes that I like Frednub.

Suddenly, I heard a hoarse voice.

"GET OUT OF MY LOBBY!" Lewbert, the wart-faced doorman screamed. I decided to scream back at him.

"I'M JUST GOING TO MY FRIEND'S HOUSE," I yelled at the top of my lungs. "YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT?"

When Lewbert didn't answer I said, "That's what I thought," and I quickly went into an elevator to get to Apartment 8C.

With my luck, I ran into Fredward and his nutcase of a mother.

"Samantha," Mrs. Benson said like I was the worst thing ever and she quickly walked into her apartment when the elevator stopped at the 8th floor leaving me and Freddie in the hallway. Alone.

***

I went upstairs to Carly's room to hang out. Fredweird went upstairs a while ago while I was enjoying my precious ham.

When I entered Carly's bedroom, I saw Freddork was using the computer.

"Guys, look," he chuckled, pointing at a passage on the screen. "It says here that the biggest challenge for Nug-Nug from Galaxy Wars is fighting in a battle but everyone knows it's building a high-tech spaceship!"

For absolutely no reason I started laughing too even though what he said wasn't funny. There must be something wrong with me.

***

That night I slept over at Carly's apartment. She invited me over for a slumber party but I would've still stayed at her house.

First, Carly insisted on painting my nails. While she was doing that, she started talking about this guy she had a crush on, Jake. She told me that he's cute, funny, smart, and even when he says a joke that she doesn't think is funny, she still laughs.

"But just because you laugh at a joke they make but it's not funny, it doesn't mean you like them, right?" I asked, remembering when I laughed at Freddie's not-so-funny Nug-Nug joke.

"Oh, yeah! That's actually one of the biggest hints that show you that you like someone," She replied. "Why'd you ask."

"Oh, I just wanted to make sure you really like Jake and it's not some random thing you're feeling," I replied, covering up that I was talking about myself.

"Okay..." Carly said, sound unsure.

Now I know something that'll haunt my dreams. The therapist was right. I have a crush on Fredward Benson.