Daughter of the sun

Part Two

I opened my eyes and gasped for air. I was running away. I escaped that royal house once again. Why do these dreams keep on coming back?

I was still on the couch. I was still wearing my clothes. Everything was still exactly the way it was after Ndalo left. Ndalo. She's gonna be here to take me any minute. I winced in pain when I tried to get up. My left rib hurt so bad. I got up carefully and limped to the bathroom.

I stripped naked infront of the full length mirror and closed my eyes while turning around to have a view of my left rib. It hurt so much that I grunted a little.

I gasped and tears fell off when I saw the red bruises.
Me: What is happening to me? God please help me.
I sobbed quietly and went down on my knees and bowed down.
Me: Dear Lord I do not know what is happening to me. Only you does, please make it stop. Do not let evil spirits have their way with me.

I crawled into the shower. I turned it on and sat under it and replayed the dream. I felt a wave of cold that I couldn't explain, the water became ice cold, the water on the surface turned into ice. I tried to get up but it was slippery I fell back down hurting my rib even more. I cried trying to rich for the door. My hands were frozen. I said a prayer in my heart. 

"Nomonde!"

"Ndalo. Ndalo come help me" I had no voice. I could see her in my head going to my bedroom. She opened my ensuite bathroom door and called my name again. She closed the door after getting no response and walked out of the bedroom.

"Monde I don't wanna be late tu"

I felt an excruciating pain on the either sides of my head and I was in a river. In the center of huge scary river. It was raining hard.

"Khaliphi!" A voice echoed from somewhere in the green quiet forest that surrounded the river. It looked like it was about to rain. I tried to swim away but I couldn't move.

My head kept going back on forth on the between my real life and the dream.

Ndalo: Monde what are you doing? Did you block the drain?

It wasn't clear but I saw her pulling me out of the bathroom. I was shivering, she got the towels and wrap me. She knelt beside me and hugged me. I cried.
Me: I'm going crazy Ndalo.
Ndalo: Shhh.

She rubbed my back until I gained my conscious. There was water on the floor. I was sitting on it. The bathroom wasn't frozen anymore.
Me: Where did the water come from?
Ndalo: The bathroom. Is your drain blocked? I found water almost on your neck. Did... did you drink again?
I shook my head.
Ndalo: Wait
She turned my face to look at her.
Ndalo: Were you trying to drown yourself?
Me: No. I wouldn't do that!
Ndalo: Then explain it to me why was the water almost on your head?

I got up.
Me: I need to clean this mess.
She got up too.
Ndalo: Not before you explain to me what the Fuck is going on here.
Me: Nothing's going on. Okay? I just- I just need time to think.
Ndalo: Yesterday I found you on the floor, you blamed alcohol. Today I find you here in a shower full of water. Does that look like nothing to you?
Me: It really is nothing.
Ndalo: What did you mean, you're going crazy?
Me: Can I please be alone?
Ndalo: I'm not going anywhere.
Me: I want to be alone!

My rib pained. She stormed out. I sat on top of the toilet seat and grabbed my hair painfully. Nothing could describe the conflict I had inside me.

                  ......

I called Tessa to cancel my meetings, not that I had energy for any meetings after yesterday's with Khuboni. He annoyed and angered me. He wasted my time.

I cleaned this whole place out in a space of 3 hours. I had taken pain blocks before I started. They were wearing out.

I made food and sat down to eat. I took my phone and called dad. I had my fingers crossed that he answers.
Dad: Monde. I can't really talk right now.
Me: Just hear me out.
Dad: Baby I'd love to but now isn't the good time. I'll call you later okay. I love you.

He hung up. I sighed. He's been busy since the day we were born. I've never seen him have time for us. Its so hard to achieve on top of your class for your dad to only say, we'll talk when I get back and then he never comes back until after 3 months.

I called Susies' place to make an appointment. She's a therapist. They scheduled me for later. That's how quick I needed to talk to a professional before I totally lost my mind.

I cooked, ironed and packed my clothes to pass time.

I requested an uber when the time came. I was planning on buying a car once my business was really solid.

Arriving there. I was sent in to one of the therapists that worked under Susie. I wanted to confide to a total stranger. She wasn't there so I made myself comfortable on a couch.

She came in after a while.
Her: I'm so sorry to keep you waiting. My husband decided to look after the kids today so each and every minute he calls to ask where's what. Are you married?
Me: No I'm not.
Her: My advice would be; don't.
We laughed. She extended her hand.
Her: I'm Nonkonzo Dlamini.
Me: Nomonde Grootboom.
Nonkonzo: You're colored?
Me: Xhosa but grew up in KZN.
Nonkonzo: You're beautiful.
Me: Thank you.

She sat down and took her notebook.
Nonkonzo: I am your new best friend. You can tell me anything. I will not judge you. You can trust me. Okay?
Me: Ok.
Nonkonzo: We may begin. Would you like to tell me who you are or you wanna get to what brought you here?
Me: I'd like to address my issue please.
Nonkonzo: Your leg is shaking
Me: It shakes when I wanna cry.
Nonkonzo: Cry.

I sobbed. She handed me a box of tissues. I sobbed until I calmed down.
Me: I'm having dreams.
Nonkonzo: What kind of dreams?
Me: Except, they aren't dreams.
Nonkonzo: What do you mean? And when did they start?

I got up and went to stand over the window.
Me: About 3 weeks ago. They started as dreams until I realized they were not. It like I have 2 lives, here and on the other village where I'm hunted down by the queen. I have a name there. I am Khaliphi. I always escape from that mean queen, last night she killed my aunt and drank her blood. From what she said, I think she killed the family I have there. I pass out every where in my house. I haven't seen my night in weeks. In these dreams I'm always saved by the sun, its sort of like the people from there are allergic to the sun. And then this morning I woke up with bruises and then something weird happened in my bathroom...

It was awfully quiet now. I turned. She was asleep. I walked to her.
Me: Nonkozo. Hello?

I shook her. She wasn't responding. I felt her pulse. There was no pulse. She wasn't breathing.

Oh my God!