My Vampire Adam

Butterflies

It took me 11 minutes to get to the park, 9 minutes earlier than Adam had planned. This was because I was speeding and going as fast as I possibly could. But somehow, Adam was already here, sitting comfortably in his truck . I parked in the empty spot next to him and when he didn't notice me, I honked to get his attention. He looked over, startled, but then smiled and waved at me. We both got out of our vehicles and walk over to the swings with each other. We sit on the swings for awhile and we talked about ourselves. We exchanged secrets and things we don't tell many people, somehow it just feels like we've known each other forever. He surprised me and asks, "have you ever kissed anyone before?"

I respond quickly, "Only one person. I dated him at my old school for about four months."

"Why did you two break up?"

"He had sex with my best friend and then told everyone that I cheated on him with six different guys. That's why I had to leave my school, the rumors and gossip turned everyone against me. I couldn't handle it anymore, I had to get out," I felt relieved to be close enough with someone at my new school to be able to tell them this, but I also hoped Adam wouldn't judge me.

"I'm so sorry, that's awful. I've never kissed anybody," the way he quickly brought up himself made me feel like he didn't actually care about my situation and he only cared about talking about himself. I knew that couldn't be the case and I was certainly overanalyzing his words, but I was still worried.

I decided the best thing I could do was give him the attention he clearly wanted, "Why haven't you kissed anyone?"

He looked at the ground and answered, "I feel uncomfortable getting too close to girls, I'm scared that I'll mess something up or the girl won't like me I guess."

"I'm sorry Adam, but you don't need to worry about that with me. I'm not like the other girls you know, I promise."

"I want to kiss you but I want it too much, I'm not okay," I could tell he's upset.

"It's just a kiss, it's not too scary I promise haha," I tried to make him feel better.

"It's not just a kiss to me, it's way more. Being that close to someone... I don't know if I can do it without feeling way more than I should."

I knew that he was just in his head and worried for nothing, so I leaned over and held his hand. We both looked down at our linked hands and then back up at each other before I kissed him.