I am alive ( male reader x ST300)

A Neutral friendship

I looked at the Android, shock and confusion spread through my body. " W.. Why? I mean.. I.. Uh" I tried to come with accused but I just stumble on my words. This is new, this is to much for me. The Android looked at still waiting for a answer " I.. I guess it's fine.. " I gave in, as much as I liked being alone. There's a small piece of me that didn't. The Android smile warmly " Thank you.. Thank you so much. " She said grabbing my hands

" Uh.. Um right.. " I said trying to distance myself, which resulted in the Android looking at my strangely. " Let's.. Let's just go. " I said leading the way as the Android fallowed me.  I looked up at the sky seeing it was starting to snow harder " We gotta hurry. " I said starting to pick up the paste, the Android did they same, soon we reached my house, I unlock the door and walked inside in Hurry. The Android looked around and close the door behind her.

" Welcome I guess, make yourself at home. " I said taking a set in the living room in on a chair, the floor was wooded, a fire place in the back right conner, a long couch in the middle with two chairs besides it, the walls were lim green, and the TV was in front of the couches, shelves hanged from the walls  that held multiple pictures of when I was young.  I look at the Android noticing it was standing there unsure what to do.

" You can take a seat Y'know. " I said to her " R.. Right. " She said taking a seat on the big couch. It was awkward, extremely awkward I tried to start a conversation " So.. Uh what's your name? " I asked her, she looked back unsure how to answer before grabbing her shoulder and looked away " I.. I don't have one.. " She said sadly, I look at her before saying " H.. How about I give you one? " I said a bit shyly, the Android looked back at me shock " Really? " She said with hope " Y... Yeah, let me think. " I said taking a minute to thinking  before deciding " How about... Uh.. Rose? " I asked beginning admitted mentally slapping my head

But when I look back at her, all I saw was her crying as a smile appear on her face " Thank you... Thank you so much! " She extremely happy.  As she wipes her tears away " It was... It was no problem. " I said rubbing the back of my head. I look up at the clock seeing it close to THAT time. Sign and got up, Rose look at me confused " Whatever you do, don't go upstairs. " I said coldly and went upstairs leaving a confused and worried Rose.

I walk into my room then went to the bed and sat on it. I looked at my switch blade and grabbed it soon I started to cut my arm. I gave myself multiple cuts two across my arm in the from of an X and three lines. The blood poured out of my arm as sat back watched it hit the floor, at that moment I couldn't help but cry. This feeling wont go away, it will never leave, I will never be free, this will always repeat no matter what I do. My cries only got loader when I heard foot steps, I quickly hide the switch blade and cover my arm under the Blanket

" H.. Hello? You okay? " Rose asked while knocking " Yeah... Yeah I'm fine. " I answer back  while looking at the blanket " May I come in? " She asked, I started to panic more " Ugh.. Um.. Sure. " I said watching her walk in and took a seat next to me " You sure you're okay? " Rose asked worryingly " Y.. Yeah, I'm fine. " I said trying to lie, rose looked around the room " You have a nice... " She stop as she looked at the blood on the floor " Why.. Why is blood on the floor? " She ask looking at me, I could tell she was getting even more worried by the second " R.. Rose it's fine.. I uh. " I said trying to think of a lie

She looked at me concern and confused, she than sat down on the bed. My heart started to increase speed, I was nervous.... I was scared. I didn't know what to do, when she reached for my arm I immediately pulled my arm away and jumped off my bed backing away from Rose. I was in the corner of my room now.

Rose would slowly get up and walk towards me " Please... I just want to help. " She said still walking towards. My heart at this point was going 100 hours per hour as multiple thoughts ran through my mind like bullet trains.

Rose was right in front of me now, my eyes widened as I get a flash back.  I was ten, my dad had me corner as he he grabbed my throat slowly putting pressure on it. I couldn't breathe as tears ran down my face. I snapped out my flashback and push rose back " STAY AWAY FROM me! DON'T TOUCH ME! " Yelled as she looked at me, I slowly backed slide down against the wall " P-please..... Please don't hurt me.... " I said as tears ran down my face looking down at the floor

I suddenly felt a pair of arms wrapped around me, I looked to see Rose hugging me tightly. It felt good, it was warm and comfortable " I would never hurt you.. You saved me remember? " She said soft. I continue to cry into her shoulder as slowly wrapped my arms around her.

At that moment I felt something. It felt like a spark being lit. Whatever this feeling is, it feels nice.