𝕂𝕡𝕠𝕡 𝔹𝕩𝔹 𝕆𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕥𝕤

I love you pt.2

*nomin*
*angst/ fluff*

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

It's been about 2 weeks since Jeno walked out on Jaemin, leavening the broken boy alone.

Jaemin felt like his whole world came to a end once the black haired boy didn't come back.

He always thought that it was Jeno who needed him most but he was wrong.

He would put a smile on his face at school and show all this friends that he was ok, but once he was alone he broke. He gave in to the voices agin. He let the sharp blade take care of some of the pain, he let himself draw slits into his small wrist and the red liquid seeped from his skin. It help for a bit but the pain would always come back no matter how much he tried to stop.

Voices were nothing new to the blonde boy. He grew used to them ever since he was first hit with depression and anxiety when he was younger. He lived with them for so many years until the black haired boy came into his life. He was the only one who could stop them, but since he was gone they came back to take control of what once was theirs.

Jeno wasn't the only crazy one.

The blond boy would wear long sleeves to hide the dark markings of pain on his wrist, he would put his best fake smile on his face and go to school.

Jeno would see the boy sometimes during the day but they never spoke, or even looked at each other.

He would watch the boy eat his lunch and smile when he friends talked to him but he also saw him fiddle with his sleeves and let down the happy mask he was hiding behind. He knew the boy wasn't ok.

Jeno didn't take it well either. He let his anger out by fighting and beating other guys who pissed him off. His knuckles were always wrapped, it hid the busted and bruised skin underneath. He didn't know how else to cope with the pain of not having the blond boy.

Jaemin tried to move on, he flirted and messed around with other guys at his college, but he wouldn't let them go too far. He would immediately rush home and jump in the shower. He hated the touch of the other boys on his body, he would scrub to the point where his skin was red. He only wanted Jeno's fingers on him, he had grown to attached to the black haired boys touch and he didn't like anyone else's.

His world was completely worthless now that he lost the boy he loved.

Jaemin made his way out of his apartment, he decided to get some fresh air. His wrist burned from the fresh marks that covered his skin.

He put his hood up and walked down the side walk, he turn the corner of his building and instantly rammed into a hard chest.

"O-oh I'm sorry." Jaemin said as he stepped back and looked up at who he ran into.

He felt his heart drop when his eyes met the dark ones of the boy he was so desperate for.

"Jaemin?" Jeno said in shock.

The blond boy missed the sound of the older's deep voice. He loved the way he would call his name.

Jaemin as soon snapped out of his daze And stumbled back. He looked at the tall male, he tried his best to hold back his tears.

He wanted to run into the boy's arms but he also wanted to stay away. He didn't deserve Jeno and the male didn't need him.

Before Jeno could say anything the boy began to turn around and walk away.

Jaemin knew he had to stay away, he couldn't see the older boy, he wasn't good for his health.

"Jaemin wait." Jeon said as he reached out and grabbed they boys wrist tightly to stop him.

Jaemin let out a cry as the sharp pain shot through wrists. The back hair boy's grip was tight on his cuts.

"Ah p-please let g-go." The blonde said as he tried to pull away.

Jeno was confused as to why the boy was in so much pain. He tightened his grip around the boys wrist and watched him gasp and cry out.

"S-stop." The blond cried.

Jeno grabbed the boy and pushed him aginst the wall and pulled up sleeve.
He felt his blood boil when he saw the deep scars and marks that covered the boys wrist.

"Jeno no p-please don't look, l-let me go." Jaemin cried out and he attempted to pull his wrist out of the boy's hand but failed.

"It's because of me..... isn't it." Jeno said in his low voice.

Jaemin head shot up and looked at the older male, his black locks fell into his deep eyes.

"N-no Jeno I-it's-" Jaemin was cut off when he was picked up. He was in shock when the black haired boy began to carry him back into his apartment.

"J-jeno put me down." Jaemin cired but the other male didn't listen. He walked all the way up to the blond boys dorm and kicked the door open.

He walked in and sat the crying boy down on the bed.

"J-jeno please l-leave." Jaemin cried.

The black haired boy narrowed his eyes at the smaller boy on the bed.

"You expect me to leave you like this?!" Jeno snapped in a loud voice marking the smaller flinch.

The black haired boy didn't wait for an answer, he walked into the bathroom and grab the first aid kit and sit in front of the younger on the bed.

He grabbed the boys shaking hands and pulled up his sleeves agin. He let his eyes slowly room over the disgusting and ugly marks that cover the boys wrist. He leans down and kisses the cuts gently.

Jaemin let the tears roll down his cheek as he felt the soft lips he longs for on his skin once again.

Jeno continued to kiss the marked skin making the smaller forget they were there.

"Why did you ruin your beautiful skin over me." Jeno whispered against the boys wrist.

Jaemin began to cry harder, he was beginning to find it hard to breathe .

Jeno slowly pulled the boy against his chest.

"I d-didn't do it because of you, I-I did it b-because of m-myself, I was the r-reason you left, I'm just a-a nosy bitch." Jaemin cried out.

Jeno rested his head on the boys soft blond hair.

"You just wanted to help me Jaemin and I'm the psychopath who hurt you. You were in pain because of me." Jeno said with a sigh.

He pulled away and rested his forehead of the others boys.

"I should of never left you that night. You don't know how much I have been suffering without you." Jeno whispered out.

"I didn't realize how mush I need you to survive." The black haired boy said quietly.

"I'm sorry." A tear fell down the boys cheek when those words left his lips.

Jaemin didn't hesitate to grab the older's face and connect their lips. The younger melted at the soft feeling of the taller's lips on his once again.

Jeno pulled the boy closer by his waist and deepened the kiss.

The older slowly laid the boy back on the bed and made his way on top of him, not breaking the sweet kiss for a second.

He kissed the boy once more before he pulled away.

He removed the boys shirt as he sat up.

He scanned his eyes over the boy's beautiful body.

"I don't want you to ever damaging this beautiful skin again. The only person who is allowed to mark it is me." Jeno said softly as he lightly kissed the boys stomach.

"I love you." Jaemin whispered out.

Jeno leaned back down and kissed they boy on the forehead.

"I love you more."

As time goes by scars heal, and pain turns to happiness and all Jaemin and Jeno need is each other.