Tainted love (foxy x Freddy or golden Freddy ) who will he choose?

The pain

Warning self harm
Foxys POV
I saw them closing up when Freddy came in, pulled the curtain back, he went up and kissed me. I pulled back even though I wanted to kiss him back but it just didn't feel right, especially after all the countless times he's hurt me, I felt tears start well up in my eyes. Suddenly I felt something wipe them away, I looked up and saw Freddy with a heart broken expression. "Foxy are you feeling alright?" He asked showing concern, I just nodded "c-captain can you p-please leave.." he then got up slowly and walked out. When I knew he was completely gone I went up to a small box, and took out a knife and pressed it up to my fur and saw oil starting to come out, I did it until there was a small pool of oil and fluid by my feet. I then cleaned up the mess and bandaged my arm hoping that nobody would find out about what I had done.
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Should I continue this please tell me