Rising From The Ashes

Chapter Ten

Was he dreaming, her skin was like velvet, or silk and her smell had fill the whole room. His hands were tracing her body in a trance like motion, with every stroke she moaned his name. Their union had been the most profound moments in his life. All the other times had meant nothing, this time was what he had waited for all his adult life. The light was dim inside his room, it was furnished only by the moon that hovered just above the ocean, that same blue/white moon that he had sat and looked at every night for weeks, willing her to come. He would plead with the gods to let his dreams come true, if she was to all of a sudden appear, walk down the beach and right into his arms. But each night he would return to his cottage alone, and more sad than the moments before. But now, they were here, together in heart and mind, fulfilled to the brim with the deepest love that could ever be. 

Sanem woke fulfilled, happy, and feeling more like a woman than ever. A woman that had allowed herself to love without boundaries and doubt, love a man that was a meaningful and devoted person to her. She had the desire still roaring through her body, but he was in such peaceful sleep she decided not to disturb him, just fill her eyes with him until he felt the need again. Then she would be there, again and again for the rest of her life. " What....the rest of her life? "  Stay here the rest of her life."  She thought, letting it sink in, but what if he decides to leave again, what if she doesn't make happy enough, or she screws up and he loses that trust in her  again. The instant reality set in, would he leave, sail off without letting her explain, just as before. Oh, she hated these dark and ugly thoughts that formed inside her. They stripped her of all her happiness, making her scared. He looked beautiful lying there, in his splendor that was nothing less than god like, why did he make her doubt, but more than that, why did she doubt herself.  She must have a mental defect, she was sure that's what it was.

She slid out of bed, wrapped the extra sheet around her and stepped out into the night, breathing in the sea air. It made her feel energized, it cleared her head most of the time. Had she done the right thing, it had been a wonderful thing, she knew that, but did it complicate things even more. She recalled the last hours, and how gentle, loving and hungry he had been with her. It was perfect, making her transition into womanhood, loving someone with all her heart. She couldn't imagine it with anyone else. The decision to wait to prove her love may have seemed silly to some, but to her there had never been an option, she would have waited for him the rest of her life. Where did they go from here, she had so many obligations to fulfill, maybe it would be best for her to go back to her life and him follow his life here. No, she knew he would balk at the thought, so would she be able to stay with him, or possibly sail with him, on to other places, roaming about for the rest of their lives.

 She folded her legs and sat down on the sand, the breeze was warm and inviting, she dropped the sheet, letting it fall to the ground. The air blew gently around her, making her skin warm. Her mind retraced the passion that had lived between them, and she played it over in her mind. Her thoughts brought out a million goosebumps that covered her body, even with the warm air caressing her bare skin. If she had known the pleasure from making love before, she might not have waited so long. Thoughts filled her head, why did she always have to think, just be, don't let your mind cause unhappiness. She closed her eyes, " You can do this, be happy.  You have fulfilled your dream of being a writer, and a damn good one at that, so now let you be happy.....

Can woke and without opening his eyes he reached for her. That dream had been real hadn't it, she was there with him. His heart jumped with anticipation as he felt the bed beside him....it was empty. His eyes flew open, and he bolted up out of bed, she's gone....she had left. He looked around, had he dreamed it....No, her clothes were there, so she hadn't left, his heart calmed down realizing she must be outside. He walked to the door and saw her sitting on the beach, her body engulfed in the moonlight, he walked out to the beach and sat down beside her. He touched her shoulders as he slid in behind her, she jumped at his touch then the tingle of his hand on her skin brought her alive. He kissed her shoulders and then her neck, taking a long breath of her scent. " What are you doing out her, let's go back to bed." He whispered between kisses on her neck. She moaned, leaning her head back against his bare chest, " But this is perfect right here," she said, with desire dripping from her voice.  He wrapped his arms around her, cradling her naked skin against his. The world could stop and never move again and he would be happy, content and fulfilled with love that he never thought imaginable. He had dreamed so many times over the past years of what fully loving her would be like, but nothing prepared him for the reality of it, the magic she created with her presence. 

The horizon was turning a bronze color as the sun was preparing to rise. Such a rich hue of glory, to open the day. She snuggled in, wanting all of him to touch her. How would her heart handle this overload of love she felt. Her love for him was epic and dynamic. This day that was about to  start, meant her time with him would end soon. Her plane left in 26 hours, to carry her on to the next destination of her life. The thought made her ache and shivered inside, he leaned in whispering in her ear, " Bebek, are you cold, let me warm you, " He scanned his hands down her arms and around to her stomach, with them landing gently on her breasts, she drew in a deep breath and closed her eyes. Please, my god, help me survive the tantalizing touch of this man. Their love for each other took over and it delivered another glorious opening of desire for her, sweeping her away into the waves of love. He satisfied her once again with a passion that was unbelievable. The sun was shining  bright as they opened their eyes to the day. Still lying on the beach, wrapped in only their love, their bodies open and free. She shyly reached for the sheet as she glanced at him with thoughts of embarrassment. He smiled, " Are you hungry," I can fix us breakfast, Or not," He whispered in her ear. " We can stay like this forever if you want," That's what I want." He teased. He kissed her neck, and inched up to her ear, nibbling on her ear lobe. She swallowed hard, and her heart was stomping inside her chest. " Can, someone might see us, it's daylight now," So let's go in." She said looking around nervously. She was such a woman child, a woman full of desire and love, but the child of wonderments and doubts.....

But she was his woman....and that's all that mattered.....