Always Changing(Jacob Black x reader)

Don't over think about //Edited//

"Though many have been in this world, it seems only the strongest can survive if we fight hard it seems we are let down and if we smile and fame our ways, someone knows what we hide. We live in a society where people use our differences and throw it in our faces because we are different. Queer is something that means strange or odd, but aren't we always told as children to be ourselves? Aren't we told to reach for the stars? How could we when we are simply pushed away for showing our differences? We aren't equals we are forced to believe so but we all know we have teased one person for being different. So have we been lied to? Or are we lying to ourselves?" (I wrote this myself)
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As we sat and had our laughs, Alice sat next to Jasper mumbling words to him. 'These people made the best couples ever, well they are vampires, aye.' After seeing my ship laughing and joking to themselves Emmett and Roselie joked about nonsense, 'though they are vampires they are more humane than most people' I stand from my position on my couch and smile, "I'll see you guys later, yeah? I have to go back to the house one day." I say they nod and I step back and turn towards the door opening the door "(y/n)?" Edward says beside me, "Yeah?" I whisper as we stand right outside the door, "I don't care if it's like 3 in the morning call me and talk to me, or Alice, anyone. I just, I love you, okay?" I smile as he weaves a hand through his hair "I love you. Okay." I smile as I wave and race towards my car and grip the door handle of my car, "Hello, baby, I missed you." I mumble to my prize possesion my Chevy getting in the car once again that night. As I think of the whole dream thing again the little girl just stays in my conscious like who the hell was she. Honestly that little girl gave me the fucking chills.

I wasn't completely sure though I mean what if it was a sign? Or maybe I was just out of it right? Right? My face drops slowly as I see the little girl I stop driving and she stares into my eyes, her brown irises look deeply in my eyes, "There's no way out." I hear and she disappeared. I blink several times frustrated didn't fit my emotions. Who is that? What does she want? What is she? Lastly, Why is her dress ripped and the teddy bear she holds is no better. I start the car and start driving to my destination, I drive several closed stores and trees. I finally get to the house opening the door and walks in tired. When I look up I see the household Billy, Paul, Jared, Sam, Mom, Harry, pretty much everyone. Even Quil, Embry, Jake, Leah, and Seth. I blink at them and turn away, making my way to my room quite honestly I wasn't in the mood for people, Vampires yeah, anytime. People nope, never.

As I enter my room I hear a frustrated voice along with voices of reasoning then I hear someone walking to my room. When the door cracks open long and behold Jacob. I look at my wall with pictures filled with posters and my white board and pin board with pictures. "We were worried you know." Jacob says, I scoff "A whole lot that's why I woke up to an empty, cold room." I confirm and accuse him, he frowns, "You didn't even visit, Jacob. What hap-pened to best friends f-for-ever." I say as tears pull into my eyes "Hm? Can you explain? Because you've been rain checking every time we have plans." Tears were now running down my cheeks landing on my sweats. "Look I've been busy I thought you would understand." I shake my head "I could of died. I hope you understand." I said rudely.

"Maybe, Jake I swim into your thoughts, just to drown and sink and die." I say as I stand up grabbing my keys, my mind spoke saying 'Maybe I can swim into your thoughts, like your drugs do.' I push past him 'Paralyzed your body, Sick and Tired of waking up too, Burned eyes and cigarettes, I'm falling threw the couch like a suicide mission' I go to the front door and walk out the house and get into my car driving and crying is like a suicide mission, I felt paralyzed to the thought, he didn't even try, he was busy my eyes felt irritated because of my glasses and crying they felt like, burned eyes. I drove to the only person I wanted right now.

Michael. He opened the door with all his glory his red hair and his green eyes staring back at my (e/c) ones his body dressed in sweats and a Metallica shirt. He smiled at me and we sat together on the couch, he started smoking a cigarette and I stared I grabbed it carefully and placed it between my lips and he chuckled and instructed me on how to do it. I blew out the smoke and smiled, 'My god here comes the downside' Michael leaned in and grabbed the cigarette that was placed in my hand. He looked at me and leaned in slowly yet so did I. 'Wild eyes of terror pray for sex on the beach, now Oceans of Kerosene will soak into me, I'm not meant for this world, I just don't see the point, don't think about it, don't over think about it' When we finally kissed he pulled me closer to him, we pulled apart and I stared at him and he stared at me "Don't over think about it." He mumbled and kissed me again, I didn't see the point of pulling away now as we kissed, 'Don't over think about it.' Ran through my mind.

'And life is a joke, But everything's riding on me tonight, Been counting the stars and scars How I'm becoming a work of art' Michael places his hand on the base of my neck and places me on his lap. The humor of kissing Michael was the thing that life is a joke, Michael and I are practically opposites, I have no tattoos he has some, he has piercings and I don't (sorry if you do). He licked my bottom lip (I am laughing so hard rn) and I don't know what to do he. He lightly puts his hand in my hair lightly pulls (lightly okay no hulk smash shit). I gasp and he lightly puts his tongue in my mouth, and I could practically feel the blush on my cheeks grow as now they were red not the pink I felt when we first kissed. He pulls apart and says "You lipstick stain is a work of art." I blush harder as our foreheads lean against each other my strawberry and mint breath mixing with his cigarette and mint breath.

' Desperate times and desperate measures, I come so close, my hopes are severed by the downside, A million waves in the ocean crash at once to make you smile' I smile at him and he smiles at me, I get closer to him and he comes closer our lips crash together as waves crash against the shore.
'The whispered words "You'd better hide the bullets", You stayed on the phone and talked to me day and night, Trigger my nightmare once again, And it's fucking loaded in hand' Michael licked my bottom lip and I parted them as he then put his tongue back in my mouth, then I put my hands into his red dyed hair gently pulling and massaging the scalp repeating this as he groaned (Omf I can't, btw this is Michael Gordon Clifford we are talking about I can't) "(y-y/n)" I blush even harder at that his accent making my name sound better. 'Surprise' I hear a voice say, but I couldn't careless. I smile softly again Clifford's pink lips, he lightly takes my lip in between his teeth.

'And we'll let the fire rage, The smoke and the drowning flames, My bedroom computer light is the only menace to my new faux wooden blinds'
As the kiss gets a bit heated I lightly lick his bottom lip and I feel as if a fire is burning in the pit of my stomach and butterflies erupting in my stomach. I then hear a chime of a computer system and a bright light appears but we pay no heed to this and continue the kiss.

'In desperate times and desperate measures, I come so close, my hopes are severed by the downside, A million waves in the ocean crash at once to make you smile, Now, I only pray when it all goes down I'll be surrounded by all of the ones I've loved and cared about, And then burn it down'
I feel as the fire grew in my stomach, a blush appear and a slight smile and the make out just got a bit more.... desperate in a sense, it felt as the kiss was felt with desperate measures too.

'And life is a joke, But at least I can love you, naked and tattooed, Counting the stars and scars, And if the pain is a sound, let's slow it down'
He grips my hips and pulls me closer to him, I grip his Metallica shirt and throw it somewhere and we kiss again as I have one hand in his hair again and one tracing his tattoo on his bicep. He slips off my my glasses are at the tip of my nose and place them on himself and I release a giggle. As we connect our lips we slow down.

'Desperate times and desperate measures I come so close, my hopes are severed by the downside A million waves in the ocean crash at once to make you smile, Now, I only pray when it all goes down
I'll be surrounded by all of the ones I've loved and cared about, And then burn it down, Your serotonin is gone, The kerosene is gone, The sunset is gone So hold on' The kiss went back to heated, roughly and desprate, small smiles and tongues crashing, passionate kisses and it felt as if he was your drug that you needed at that moment but it was all gone when Calum enters "Hey Micheal-" he froze and his jaw dropped, "Holy shit."