Brutal Horrors

Update!

This is very important please read!!

Okay to start off I want to thank all of you readers for the endless support on this book. It really means a lot to me. I started writing this book to release the tension and stress I used to have. I live with a very toxic parent for the first 16 years of my life. It was absolutely horrible. I had to put up with a lot of abuse from them for that period and writing was the only way I could be vent my frustration, anger, hatred, sadness and all the other negative emotions I felt. But then my other parent took me and siblings and ran away.

A lot of things happened after that. The toxic parent still bothered us for the first 3 years since we left them. They would stand outside my grandparent's house and throw hurtful words that would cause me consecutive nightmares for months without end. It was traumatic to say the least. The toxic parent would threaten to kill themselves if we dont return to that house with them.

Would you like to know the worst part? The toxic parent was a preacher. That's right I was a pastor's daughter. To think all the corruption that went on in their mind that would push them to harm their precious little children at such a young age continously till they mid teen lives. The abuse drove me to a point where suicide was in my mind every day. I did attempt it a couple of times but my mother was always there for me. Everytime I saw her face I instantly regretted it. I did not have it in me to tell the woman who brought me in this world that I don't want to be in it anymore. I would constantly cry myself to sleep in hope of a better tomorrow.

But as the 3rd year came to an end the drama died down tremendously. They got a divorce and my angel of a mother got FULL custody of her babies. We had no obligation to talk, meet, or interact with the toxic parent anymore.

I do miss having a father figure but not him in particular per say. I can tell my mom gets lonely but me and my siblings try our best to keep her smiling no matter what.

Long story short, I am in a much better place now and I no longer hold any hatred or resentment towards my dad. He is manipulative, a liar and a cheater but I do not hate him. He pisses me off A LOT but I am much happier now. My heart is slowly healing with the love of my family.

Because of this I no longer am going to continue this book. I have grown.

If you are going through something traumatic at the moment just know that it will cone to an end much sooner than you think.

There is hope.

I do not know if any of you are religious but I know for a fact that praying 100% works. It helped to calm me down throughout almost all my mental breakdowns.

I am here to talk to any of you if you need it.

I am 19 years in my 2nd year of my degree in Accounting. I would think that I am happy with where I am at the moment despite my horrible past.

It gets better, I promise.

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