Once Upon a Dream

chapter 4

The boy came back every night after that  and sometimes it would only be a few seconds or he would sing to me. That song that stupid song, it was beautiful yet it scared me. Just like it did tonight,

*In Dream

Again I was in the room alone and it was dark except that one light that always shown down on me. I rolled my eyes "Come on get out here. I know you are there!" I called out into the darkness, my voice echoed. I never knew what was out there I wanted to know, but i wasnt stupid if the 'abyss' was as dangerous as he said it was I would be dead the second I left the spotlight. 

As I was deep in thought a movement caught the corner of my eye. I whipped around to face his sad features. He looked sad as he sarted singing the song, 

I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream

I know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam

He opened his arms motioning me to go into our usual postion when he sang, his hand on my waist and his other held my hand. So i did, partily out of pity but mostly because I liked it. The way he held me was familair and I felt safe, I could tell he cared about me. It was obvious I had known him at some piont in my life and I dont remember, due to an accident I had a few years ago. As I was lost in thought he continued singing his hauntingly beautiful song

But if i know you, I know what you'll do

You'll love me at once-

He stopped suddenly as if put on mute. Confused I looked up at him, he was biting his lip and unsuccessfully fighting to hold back the tears that had only just started to stain his cheeks. I immediately stopped and wiped a tear away, I don't know why but i felt as though i should. "Are you OK?" I asked my voice a whisper.

        He didn't look at me, he just shook his head no. I felt bad, this boy obviously needed someone. I dont know who or why he bothered with me but I wouldn't just sit idle by while he cried. Without thinking I pulled him close to me. And we stood there. He cried into my shoulder and i rubbed his back trying to calm him down. Finally his sobs subsided to to nothing as the silence swallowed us whole, but it was ok. It was the kind of silence that makes you think that clams you down it was like the silence after a storm.

"Are you ok?" I asked. He lifted is head from my shoulder. "Do I look ok Tyler?" I didn't know how to answer, so i didn't. "I'm worried for you Tyler. You haven't started looking and if you don't find me by the deadline then-" he ran is hand through his hair. "If you don't find me then what happened to you will happen to me. I don't want to forget Tyler. You may not give a shit but I do. Please I will not be able to help alot but go to Zoe she knows who I am and will understand. Promise me you will?" 

I promised.

"We aren't kids anymore. This isn't a joke you have to find me."  I sighed and paced the circle of light before I looked back at him "At least tell me who you are." The boy bit his lip before walking up to me and taking my hands in his. "Before you lost your memory I was your boyfriend. I am Troye with an E Sivan. We met as children I was your neighbor. I died in a car accident while you were in the hospital. I guess nobody told you about me." there was a moment of silence, i was trying to process the new information. The boy whose name was Troy with an E is, no was my boyfriend. He died and nobody bothered to tell me, I looked at him again taking in his beauty."Was it a sui-" He cut me off "No, it was not on purpose. I wasn't paying attention, i was devastated that you were hurt and before I knew it everything hurt then there was nothing." 

"But you look perfectly fine, why is that? Shouldn't you be all scary and mangled?" Troye rolled his eyes "I can look however I want. I can look like this" he gestured to himself "or how i looked when I died, I can look like I did as a toddler."  I stared at him hesitant for what I was about to request. "Um, what did you look like when you died?" He gave me a sympathetic look "I'm not sure Tyler, It will hurt just as it did when it happened." 

I nodded "No, it is ok I understand I don't want to hurt you." I truth wanted to see what I would have seen had I not been knocked out. He sighed "I'm sorry I just dont want to relive it. Now listen I have to go now, remember to ask Zoe about me she will tell you what ever you want to know alright?" I nodded, and he kissed my forehead then disappeared into the darkness.And that is when I woke up.

*End of dream