Sleepless Nights

3rd

The third time Louis calls Harry, it actually goes to voicemail.

At this point, Louis feels embarrassment as he calls the number, and it reminds him of the times he would wake him up while they were laying in bed together.

It had been one of the worst nights for his insomnia that he's had in awhile. Still, he debates back and forth whether it would be morally acceptable to call Harry at six in the morning. In the end, he selfishly decides that he needs to hear his voice.

Despite the logical part of his brain insisting that Harry was resting, most likely drooling on his pillow back in his own apartment, he can't help but seek the reassurance he has come to rely on since Harry had started answering his calls.

His heart feels like it breaks in half when no one answers the line, though he clings onto the sound of his voicemail just like he used to.

"You've reached Harry. Leave a message after the beep and I'll get back to you whenever- thanks!"

Hearing the voice message unexpectedly causes Louis's eyes to tear up, though he refuses to let them fall. He remembers the time when would he call Harry's phone multiple times a day, desperate not to forget the sound of the man's voice. He kept a picture of him in the kitchen so to keep his face on the forefront of his mind. He wears his sweatshirt at night so it feels like he's laying in Harry's arms.

He had done so many things in a desperate attempt to keep Harry in his life. Sometimes Louis felt like he was punishing himself when he would dial the number. It was a constant reminder of his failure to keep their relationship alive.

Still, Louis didn't want to live in a world without Harry Styles in it. He would have done whatever it takes to make sure his love for him was never forgotten.

Today, Louis knows that he doesn't have to rely on old voice messages and silly photographs to keep Harry in his mind. If he wanted, he could easily head over to his apartment and see him now.

They didn't live too far away from one another, and they were on pretty good terms after spending so many nights calling each other. He knows that he'll hear Harry's voice soon enough, Louis would just have to wait until then.

He still has time with Harry, and that's something that he would never take for granted.