The big book of useless things that run though jemmas mind

Why i label my sexuality the way i do

.Welp people in real life ask me this people online ask me this so fan girls and fanboys and fans let me try to explain.

I started questioning my sexuality at age 10 when I had a crush on a girl I still liked boys so I was hella confused so I went up to my mom and was like is there a word for liking boys and girls and she said bisexual and In my mind something clicked And I was like bisexual that's me

Then I was granted something called an Internet access and social media at age 13 and I went though a bit of a phase were I looked at pictures of girls and imagined these crazy long term relationships but when I tried to do the same with boys it wasn't working I still wanted to kiss boys and have sex with boys but I could not see it going any were.

That summer I meet a girl and for her privacy and stuff I'll not give you her name so for the Point of this story I'll call her ren.

It was one of those things that hit me unexpectedly. i was a camp in my cabin and this girl walked into the cabin and the second I saw her my heart did things I can't quite explain.

Needless to say I lost a lot things to ren and gained a lot of things as well and I can now say without shame I am no longer a virgin.

We ended up breaking up at the end of the summer and I don't know if I'll find anyone like her again but she did help me realize I defiantly like girls like a lot so I'm gay right? Nope it's not that simple there's that one nagging thing in the back of my mind my feelings towards guys sometimes I wish I was gay that would make everything way easier.

So why bi why not pans or queer or Demi well I only have felt strong attraction to females and males I would how ever be open to dating someone who's trans or middle but I've never really liked anyone who is so....

Yeah long story short I choice bi because it feels right to me right now maybe I'll be gay tomorrow idk.