there i stood seeing the love of my life swap spit with another girl. i watch as he breaks away from the kiss and says, "this isn't right, i love her." as if he didn't already hurt me. my foot crunches a branch and they both look back at me like startled deers.
the look on roshauns face made my eyes tear up even more. i couldn't lose it infront of him and have him know how much he broke me. i turn around and head to my house not caring that he was following close behind.
once i get to my house i sit on the floor bawling my eyes out. he stands in front of me not knowing what to say. "it's not what it looks like, i mean it is but i can explain this. i never meant to hurt you... i love you." i finally stop crying and fidget with my hand. "y/n say something, please. yell at me, tell me how fucked up i am just say something," he begs.
"i'm leaving roshaun..." i deadplant. he looks at me in disbelief. "my dad asked if i wanted to stay with him in cali and i told him i would think about it... there's nothing holding me here anymore."
"you can't just pack up and leave i need you y/n," he cries out. his eyes pouring out more tears than i have today. i look back at my hands and think about my next plans. i never expected this to happen, i don't even know how to feel, how to cope.
i get up and head to my room to pack a few things. "where are you going?" he asks stopping me at my bedroom door.
"i'm going over my friends house, i need time to think roshaun," i say, drained of all emotion.
once i get done packing an overnight bag i stop at the front door with him. "i love you," he says.
"i love you."
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it's been a week and i hadn't left with my dad. i realized i shouldn't just go because of roshaun. i have a life here in jersey. i log into instagram and see that roshuan is on a live. i join and the comments flood my screen.
user1: good thing you broke up with y/n she wasn't good for you
the comment got roshauns attention almost immediately. "i wasn't good for her, she was perfect and everything anyone could want in a girlfriend."
user2: i thought she cheated on you
another person commented. "it was the other way around, i didn't know how amazing she was until she left. i miss everything about her," he says. i was in complete shock. i never knew he felt that way. since i was watching the live on my laptop i get my phone and text him.
let's not let this get between us... as long as you promise to never make a mistake this stupid again
once i hit send i look back to the laptop and see him smiling like a goof. "uh i'll get on live tomorrow guys," he says quickly ending the live.
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after that he realized his mistake and never made another. he treated me like a queen nonetheless.
